Connecting with Connections

Connecting with Connections

What are your connections?

Who are your connections?

Have you been connecting?

In life, when things do not work out for us in our very eyes, we need and we should and we ought to go to our connections and ask and look for and search for a piece of advice, for a help, look for a clarity, look for a resolution, look for a solution.

Would your family belong among your connections?

Would your friends belong among your connections?

Would your boss belong among your connections?

Would your neighbour belong among your connections?

Would your cat belong among your connections?

Would your dog belong among your connections?

Would your plant belong among your connections?

Would your tree belong among your connections?

Would your bed belong among your connections?

Would your community belong among your connections?

Would your school belong among your connections?

Would your master mind group belong among your connections?

Where would you go and where would you turn for a support?

Who would you ask to be present with you, to listen to you really deeply and honestly?

How many of those connections do you have?

Can you count on them at any time, at any hour of a day?

I have been finding myself on a very confusing road for the past couple of weeks, perhaps even months.

Perhaps when you least expect it, the very unexpected is going to hit you and it is going to hit you really hard. Perhaps the job offer did not go through well, perhaps the exam was not passed by you, perhaps the rent is getting higher and higher, perhaps you are not getting along very well with your housemates, perhaps you have not been feeling very well lately in your physical body, perhaps the love life has been suffering greatly, perhaps you have been the one who loved the most, perhaps you have been cheated on, perhaps you have been left heartbroken, perhaps you are not getting along with your friends, perhaps you are not getting along so well with your family, perhaps you have not been keeping in touch with your parents, perhaps you are not on the speaking terms with your brother, perhaps it has been raining on your parade, perhaps you feel under the weather, perhaps you feel the winter has stayed for far too long, perhaps you have no idea whatsoever as what direction to take next, what step to go after, what lesson to learn and what lesson to teach, perhaps you have no idea whatsoever as who to take with you on a trip, on a journey, on your travels, what article should you read again and all over again, perhaps you have no idea whatsoever as what cards to play with again and all over again, etc.

I have been on my own path for some time now, with ups and, of course, downs along the way, too. Learning my lessons as I go, forgetting them and repeating the same mistakes again. That is life. Struggling with my own luggage, missing the important people in my life desperately, finding myself while getting lost, looking for solution and resolution in every single challenge of mine, searching for my dream job, seeking passion in every single activity I do willingly or unwillingly, looking for a like-minded, nice, interesting, fun people and friends, looking for a soul-mate, hoping to live in a country I feel like at home, trying to and keeping fit, doing exercises, eating healthily, tending to garden, while smelling all the roses along the way, and be a happy person in general.

I have always been a person who can do many stuff on her own, without much need of an outside world, or as I have pathetically thought it to be. Nevertheless, the opposite is being the truth now. More and more it has been required, the help of others, the helping hand, the sound advice, the pat on the back, the smile, the kiss, the hug, the snuggling, the cuddle.

Confusion, bitterness, sadness, loneliness, depression, anger, hurt, upset, that all show up now. How to turn it all down? How do turn it back? How to go about it?

Which country to pick now? Where to travel now? What journey to take? What route to grab? What path to move on to next? What luggage to leave and what luggage to bring along with me? What to forget and what to keep remembering and remaining myself all over again and keep recalling? What to listen to and what not to listen to, what to write about and what not to write about, who to go out with and who better leave alone, who to listen to and who not to listen to, who to write to and who not to listen to, who to speak/talk to and who not to speak/talk to, who to invite and who not to invite, who to contact and who not to contact, who to ask for an advice and who not to ask for an advice, who to apologize to and who not to apologize, who to eat with and who not to eat with, who to drink with and who not to drink with, who to meet up with and who not to meet up with.

I am at the crossroad right now at this very moment. I am not quite sure where my next decision will lead me. But I am looking for a solution to my situation, for the sign that everything is going to be alright, that everything is going to work out just well at the end as it has always been.

The next couple of weeks, or should I say days, may be very critical and significant points in my life. The journey and the work is still under the construction.

The happy days are on their way. I can sense it. I can feel it. I sure know it.

Never ever give up!

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