Change the situation by changing yourself (Changing yourself changes the situation)

Change the situation by changing yourself

(Changing yourself changes the situation)

Profound, right? Not so, not so much at all, actually!

Yes, we understand the concept of it very well, indeed.

Changed situation vs ourselves changed.

I can see the point of what it is going and trying to make for us here. Yesterday was almost a day ago, yet my feelings, my attitude, my mood were all somewhere positioned in a completely different direction as opposed to where they are right now, at the moment. Why is this? Has anything happened? Is it the state I am currently in? Is that you that made me feel this way? How can I change this? How much can I change of this? All of it or just a bit of here and a bit of there? Have you ever felt as if being on a rollercoaster? As if one is is great and everything seems to go ''according'' to a plan and the next you feel gloomy and sad and exhausted from this all? How do get out of this situation? What the f#ck do we have to do in order to get be in step and dance our ways away again? Do you ever feel as if not many people really understand you? Just a few, who are willing and loving enough, souls that feel and are on the same wavelength? Why do I still strongly believe that you are a person I have chatted in the past, we have been so much on the same wavelength, I have had so many connections with you. Please, please, stay and feel this with me again. Should I embrace the current situation and just learn from it? Am I thinking too much, way too much? Tomorrow, the next day, I may feel a bit different. Am I still alive? Am I still hopeful, am I going to be happy again, alone, with this person, with whom? How can I change the situation with the mind that is literally driving me crazy at the moment? Perhaps, I should calm down first and foremost and then deal with this sh#t!! Yeah, perfect timing as usual. I can feel everything and anything in my body fighting against this awkward state I am in. As if in I am not supposed to feel that way. I am just making a big deal out of nothing. Should I put myself in his position, in his shoes? Does he want me, he says so, he says he wants me with a sad face because I hurt him in some way. We would get together, that is for sure, if in a same town, and things would get started. A trip to my country would solve so many question marks? I so care about this, that means so much to me. I did not mean to turn this into a diary thing, yet from time to time, to vent all the emotions is very healthy, indeed, so maybe just for this reason only, people should do this as well, some in their diaries, some by going outside, some by listening to music, some by doing sports, some by talking to a professional. Any way is perfect as long as it serve the purpose for the current situation to this person who is struggling and fighting with demons in a mind's clothes. Let me help you, you, the person who is on my mind for the most part of the day. Things may get better and easier. You are not going through them alone, if with me. We can and we should always work together. Take my hand and trust me, get serious on subject that really do matter and I will promise you you will not regret a thing! This is my word and I stand by it, always. Always!!

Black & White thinking

Black & White thinking

In love. In work. Among friends. In a social group. At the party. At the music event. At festival. In the library. At the canteen. At school. At the desk. In the laboratory. To name just a few! Anywhere at all is good when we can actually choose the way we are going to think in!

When giving up is not an option for you, when you have no association with giving up at all. When you cannot see the light at the end of a tunnel, yet you still feel somewhere inside of you there is a meaning in this all and you must just simply carry on like that, never mind the length of time it may take. Whatever thing it is that you have been going through and/or have been struggling with, all that black and white thinking of ours can be applied to it any time. Positive vs negative, simple or more complex one. What are the drawbacks and benefits? Where to draw the energy from when you feel at your weakest point ever? When and where to ask for love? Who do you call? Who to trust? Where to go if necessary when you want to be just left alone? How do you pick yourself up? When to spice it up a little bit more? What about the best timing? If not now, then when, please? What about your friends, the real ones who get to your phone at any time of day and night?

When you are on the roll, you cannot literally stop yourself and you go on and on non-stop. When your fingers just tape away, when the music in your ears in never-ending. When your passion might just about to bursts, when you do not want to rush things just for the sake of those things, when you suddenly believe all over again, when you want to hug this person without speaking a word, when you want to give and give and give. You have believed in this person all along, you want to see this person happy and succeed in what he does best and enjoy most! When you want to start something new with this person, when you want to start something big, when you want to embark on a brand new journey just with this person only. When something Bigger than anything you thought of is somehow on your side, the one you share together with this person. If the little fire is there and you both can and want to make it bigger and brighter and hotter and more meaningful. When you mind just won't shut up. When you do not feel hungry at all, just thirsty all the time. Thirsty for his connection, thirsty for his happiness. And thirsty for your brand new made journey. I wish for us both to stay strong no matter what, whatever they throw on this journey of ours can not break us but will make us come out even more bolder, stronger, sexier, interesting, funnier, relaxed, you name it!! Please, come with me and hold my end till the end of times, I promise everything is going to be beautiful, not perfect, but profound and lovely. Thank you for today, thank you for talking to you, thanking for all that you have said and asked, thank you for being there. May this gets many more repeats. I will do my part and I will do my best to make you a very happy man alive, indeed! May the collaborative work also gets up and running, going full on. There is a lot in you and I have lots to offer, too, and we both together can create a miracle by all means! No rush, no pull, no push, just a flow that keeps on getting bigger and more passionate and more incredible and more great as we go along with it!

Thank you once more!!!

Energy fires up (grooving)

Energy fires up (grooving)

Energy is at its highest.

Energy fires up.

Energy at its best.

Energy at is finest.

Energy firing up.

Make it work. I want to trust, I need to trust you. Prove to me that I can trust you!!

Remember when you said my name. My energy was flowing all over my body.

Remember when you first kissed me – my energy was flowing all over my body.

Remember when you mentioned you cooked: a beautiful sound to the ears.

I want us to connect together, in every way, that is!

How does it feel to be so close to someone you feel so good to be around? It is a happy grooving indeed. How can I show you all that is inside of me? All the passion, all the tension, all that makes me who I am, all that craves you, all that is interested in you? When you know exactly what you want, when you have finally made a decision, when all the questions have been answered. When we can learn from all that we have been through together, and still carry on nevertheless. I am who I am, you are who you are. There is so much more that we can do together, that we can create together, there is so much we can contribute, there is so much we can do to collaborate for its best!

For all the people that understand, for all that have been through the similar and took their chance and made everything nice and enjoyable and lovely and groovy happen – congratulations, you are the ones who lead! You have my full attention, you have my energy, you have my time. Please, make me stronger too for all that is on my mind. When you feel you have done anything to make this happen, to let the person you care about made known of what you feel, what you want to say and what keeps you awake at night. The moment when you say to yourself that you are ready to fight to this person, the moment when you do things that are bigger that any words, actions that speak definitely and totally louder than any words in the world! When everything at all sounds just a little bit better, seems and looks just a little bit more pleasant, the books and poetry and lyrics that read just a little bit more interesting. I will do my best to make sure this is going to happen. I also need your help! Will you help me out! Can we be happy and satisfied again? To reach me out, to reach you out, to connect in the most beautiful way.. I am here. I want you to come and see me. Let us make the music again together sound amazing. Thank you for being here. Never ever give up on us – the best is yet to come! 

IT IS YOU – I can't say it any other way!

It is you – I can't say it any other way!

Yes, you. I cannot say it any other way, it is you. It has been you! Really. I know, you must know, it is you. Period.

Looking back, it has been a long, a very long journey. Indeed! I wish you knew and I hope you do know what all that means to me. So much. Everything. Everything and more. Admit it, you have known this, you have felt this. Look at this, please, would you? We can do so many things, together. The collaboration, the plays, the laughs, the music, the writing, the poetry. You as a man, I want to make you happy. Me as a woman, I want you to make me happy again. The feeling of a total satisfaction. The times when we can talk together, an easy conversation, fuzzy feelings, lovely emotions. Woman wants to talk to you, can you hear it? Let me speak to you, let me say to you what is on my mind. Remember, when we were together? Remember all the clicks between us? How is it that we would not stay still if left in a room, just by ourselves? Can you imagine all the energy firing up? Do you recall the moment when our laptops froze because of all this energy of ours? Do you remember the time you called me? When you wanted me? I wanted you?? You said you loved me! You fought for me, and I fought for you – many times! And, ah, let's not forget all the passion, all this passion between us, between all those songs and tunes we have shared, all those messages, between all this!!! I can still feel it, please, please, do feel this too! This connection can always live on!

The artist, you, the music head, you, the funny one, you, the passion one, you, the one I found you, you!

I feel you, if only you could sit down and talk to me, trust me completely and totally. When you feel so free to share stuff, anything, everything at all, with me. When you open up to me, when you let me into your world, in your soul, in your heart, in your fingers, in your eyes, in your mouth, in your body, in your taste, in your mood, in your passion, in your everything. This is what I mean, as I KNOW you would love it, too!!

I want to be with you, I want you to touch me, to kiss me and I want to touch you. I want to talk to you about the music, the things you have been up to with the music, the stuff you have been working on at the moment, about me and the contribution and about our collaboration. To look into your eyes, and you looking into my eyes.

I want us to feel safe, so safe, actually, in each other's company, that it would feel like coming back home, to you, to me, and to us! You don't want to hurt me and I don't give up on you, ever!

Oh, when you surprise me and I surprise you. When the passion, the connection is very strong, fun, interesting, exciting, loving, warm, joyful, passionate, happy.

Give me, give us a chance and I can prove it. I want to see you and I want you to see me. Feeling wild and free again. Together. No other way. To kiss you on your forehead. To kiss me on my lips. To touch me. To touch you. To feel one another again! This fire can never die! I will make it go on and on to keep us safe and warm, totally happy and passionate about each other in every way!!

May you hear this song of mine.......

.... for you.

Come Closer to Me. (2)

Come Closer to Me. (2)

I want to be yours.

One person who deeply touches your soul.

I want you to own me.

I want you to cherish me.

I want you to eat from me.

I want you to drink from me.

I want to be kissed by you.

And I want to be missed by you.

I want your fingerprints
all over me, again
and all over again.

I want to be cuddled up with you.

I want to be hugged by you.

I want to be held by you.

I want to snuggle.

I want to surrender.

I want to embrace.

I want to be freely
vulnerable with you.

I want you to touch me,
to touch me everywhere.

I want your lips to wander anywhere
and you to get lost
somewhere in me.

I want to belong to nobody but you.

I want.

I want.

I want.

Someone with whom
you so much feel
on the same wavelength.

Someone who
you so much feel
to be on the same page with.

Someone you so much feel
ready to love
and be loved in return by.

Someone who
has such a creative,
beautiful soul inside.

Someone who you feel
wants to open up.

Really open up to you.

Someone who wants
to hold you tight
all night
and even harder
upon awakening
in the morning
and you want
the very same thing.

Someone who you want to trust.

With all your heart.

Someone who you so much
wish things to work out
for you both.

Someone who you want
so much to be patient
with you.

Someone who you are going to meet.

Face to face.

Talk about everything and all.

Repetition, pretty please.

Someone who wants
to show his affection for you.

Through that song,
through something that only
you two would understand.

Something that connects
only the both of you together.

Someone who wants
to be loved by you.

Forever.


Someone who has been
your inspiration,
your creative muse.

Someone who is gentle
and sensitive
and creative and smart,
bad ass and good looking,
and insane.
A dangerous combination.

Someone who you
so desperately
want to hang out with again.
And again.
Finally.

Someone who likes you a lot.

Someone who you care about.

And someone who cares about you.

I have been waiting
patiently.

I am waiting,
patiently.

For you.

Awaiting you.

For us. For us both.

I love you.

confession: you refuse to blush with shame. (2)

confession: you refuse to blush with shame. (2)


There is a good time to be had & a confession to be made!


"I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where. I love you simply, without problems or pride: I love you in this way because I do not know any other way of loving but this, in which there is no I or you, so intimate that your hand upon my chest is my hand, so intimate that when I fall asleep your eyes close." 
- Pablo Neruda, 100 Love Sonnets 


I want to be yours. 

One person who deeply touches your soul.

I want you to own me. I want you to tempt me. 
I want you to eat me. I want you to drink from me. 
I want to be kissed by you. And I want to be missed by you.
I want your fingerprints all over me, again and all over again.
I want to be cuddled up with you. I want to be hugged by you. 
I want to be held by you. I want to snuggle.
I want to be surrounded to you. I want to embrace you.
I want to be freely vulnerable with you.
I want you to touch me, to touch me everywhere. 
I want your lips to wander anywhere and you to get lost somewhere in me. 

I want to belong to nobody but you.

I want and I want and I want!!!


"I love you as certain dark things are to be loved, 
in secret, between the shadow and the soul." 
- Pablo Neruda, 100 Love Sonnets 


Someone with whom you so much feel on the same wavelength. 

Someone who you so much feel to be on the same page with. 

Someone you so much feel ready to love and be loved by in return. 

Someone who has such a creative, beautiful soul inside.

Someone who you feel wants to open up. Really open up to you. 

Someone who wants to hold you tight all night and even harder upon awakening in the morning and you want the very same thing!! Ahh damn yeah...

Someone who you want to trust. With all your heart. And body. And soul. 

Someone who you so much wish things work out for you both. 

Someone who you want so much to be patient with you. 

Someone who you want to message with.

Someone who you are going to meet. Face to face. Talk about everything and all. And repetition pretty please. 

Someone who wants to show his affection for you. Through that song, through something that only you two can understand. Something that connects only the both of you together. 

Someone who WANTS to be loved by you!! For ever. 

Someone who has been your inspiration, your creative muse.

Someone who is gentle and sensitive and creative and a smart bad ass and good looking and insane. A dangerous combination. 

Someone who you so desperately want to hang out with again. And again. Finally.

Someone who likes you a lot. A LOT, he says!!

Someone who you care about. 

And someone who cares about you. 

Someone who you believe in. 


Now.. I have been waiting patiently. 

I am waiting patiently. For you. 

Awaiting you.

For us. For us both.

I love you.

Get in touch with me as soon as possible! 


"So I wait for you like a lonely house
till you will see me again and live in me.
Till then my windows ache." 
~ Pablo Neruda  




And because you refuse to blush with shame! 

Yes. 

You.

You. Refuse. To. Blush. With. Shame. 


Receiving is harder than giving. 

And comforting you is as important as shaking you up. 

Saying no to others means saying yes to yourself.

You have been sick and tired of being sick and tired. 
NOT any more.
NOT any longer.

You could cry your eyes and ears out. 

You could cut your heart wide open.

You could scream yourself to sleep.

You refuse to sit in a corner.

Giving up is not an option. Giving up is a choice. 

Screw you! Screw the entire world!!

You refuse to blush with a shame...... Yes, you do!

You chose to show your vulnerability. 

You embrace your insecurities.

You prefer to open up. 

You act upon your thinking. 

You learn from your mistakes.

You celebrate your achievements. 

You show your feelings. 

You stand up for your art. 

You are nothing but authentic.

You openly speak up. 

You prove your words.

You are humble in your approaches and opinions.

You chose to be happy!

You declare independence. 

You cherish the little things.

You savour the quiet days /minutes/seconds.

You admit your faults.

You value your time.

You seek only high moments. 

You have high standards for yourself.

You are liberated by your choices. 

You hold no grudges. 

You lead by an example.

You are high on emotions.

You have no judgements.

You care. You so f*cking care!!

And You also let go.....


Fake it till you make it. 

Fall flat on your face. 

Your health is your wealth!

It is what you make of it.



Period.

When you can say nothing at all....

When you can say nothing at all....

What does it mean when you can say nothing at all? With you, with us? When words are not enough or when words and not needed at all? When only the look in your eyes will suffice, when even the hug will do, a smile, a stroke, a touch, a gentle shake can all take place! I would like to be with you, to smile at you, to laugh with you, to listen to music with you, to eat with you, to do crazy stuff with you, to drive with you, to be happy with you,...

The music, the poetry, the writing, the art in any form for that matter, all this is telling us something when even the words can come short. How can this be? Has it ever happened to you when only the look could speak a million and a million of words?

There are many ways to get a hold of me and you, there are many ways to reach me! The ability to read between the lines, the ability to understand anything without speaking or opening the mouth, without even listening for the words! That is a gift, a talent, something we should appreciate and not take for granted, for sure!

How many times have we talked and chatted together and how many ways have we used to communicate between each other? When you say nothing at all, when only and just your eyes make a connection or your lips slightly move and we can still yet manage to know what the other say. Am I too complicated or am I too easy to understand? Would you care even though no words are going to be truly spoken? I absolutely adore when you DO things, or say things, and then myself trying to figure them all out and find a meaning in this all, or translating what your mind has been up to for all this time!

And especially the Doing part is something I would like to point out by talking about it. Yes, we have all heard the saying actions speak louder than words! No one ever wants to be lied to, ever! Do you do your best and do you do even more than you have promised to yourself and others? Do you keep your words? Is there a white lie somewhere in the air? No problem, you say!

When we say/speak things and then we really mean it! I have a lot of things to tell you, to share with you, to speak about with you, to chat over with you. Many things are just at the tip of my tongue to burst out!!

Or when I think of you, I know you can do more, you can be more, I want to trust you, and I do respect you. Your personality is a chemistry for me, at its purest of all forms. Simple, yet so profound and complex!

We do have a lot in common, too! When I already know the way you think and the way you speak and the way you approach life.

I would really like to hold your hand and feel it, so you can feel me and you will know that you can trust me and I do trust you as well! That is so beautiful, is it not? What have you been thinking and what are you thinking right now? What is going on in your mind? What is actually on your mind, right now? And upon waking up in the morning? Can it be changed or should it be changed? Would you like it the way it is or not? I really do hope that we can make it successfully all through it and come out stronger than ever before!

Everyone should have to feel happy in every way possible and even unimaginable :-)

Thank you for your time you have spent reading it! Much appreciated!

LADDER AGAINST THE WALL

LADDER AGAINST THE WALL

You can help out and put a ladder against a wall for someone, yet he/she has to climb it up himself/herself!

Have you ever been drawn to some country and literally pulled towards it at every time?!

Have you ever thought of someone and felt being totally linked to this person?

How could ever words describe such states and such feelings?

What is going on in one's mind? Incredible stuff indeed! Everyone can tell of their own story. Yet, I could not help but wonder to ask you. To wonder about you and with you. To dream with you and to dream big, real big, that is! Why pulling one away?

When the line between us could and is so thin, so worth the wait, so worth the time, so worth the effort, so worth the energy! How would we recognize the free spirited ones? It is happy doing what he/she is doing, where she/he is currently at, etc. And you are this person to me, yet I know you cannot make it on your own. Why and how could I let this happen to you, and to us? When stubbornness hits, it can even breaks walls with the rocks. How much care should one show to the other in order to make sure and let them know that there is more to this and that, to anything at all, really!

Let the person be themselves and you can see their real face and experience their true soul. To understand someone, the other person, to understand you is what I am interested in and what interests me the most. When our mind wonders, we wonder, truly, too! We can absorb so many things when we are really open to accepting and observing. It hurts me that you cannot and do not want to see this, I really want you to understand this and more! How I wish you could! Sometimes I feel so lost and not sure of anything, not sure what to do next! And then I can feel full of energy and full of ideas.

This country, this mentality, this person, this everything will always stay with me. I cannot help it, I even think that in some way I even want this to be that way. To love and lost or to never love and lost? What could this get over it?

Is there any place, any person you are so linked with and to, so connected on a deeper level? I really wish there was! A free spirited person is one for me. What is he going to teach me and what am I going to learn from him? A lot! A plenty of lot! And much, much more!

Never ever give up on us! We have been through a lot! This days, weeks, months, years – this cannot be ever understood in 14 days!

This is really just a free flow writing. Yet, everything here is here for a reason! Let me get close to you, let me get even closer to you and I will make sure you know this is going to be beautiful, just and only beautiful!

Thank you so much for reading. The readers are my inspiration, the reason I am doing this! May you find enough reasons too.....

And thank you for showing up in my life in all those forms you have proven to me so well!

A LEAP DAY / YEAR

A LEAP DAY / YEAR

Today is a leap year, a leap day, to be exact!

What am I going to add to it? An extra something? And what about us? Can I be with you? Are we going to be together, if only via our minds, a mind by mind? I would like that very much, that would be nice.

Is there any extra that we could do more of today? If we were not to be thinking and talking just about this day and for the day that is in it, how else can I be and become a better version of myself, a better person? How I wish that! Not only I want us to collaborate together, to cooperate with each other, to get this thing up and running, that special something that we share, and with that special one you are good at, and with that special one I am good at, but I want even more than that!

The more you care, the stronger you can be!

May this happen very, very soon! That feeling that I have felt and still do, the connection that cannot be simply explained by plain words only but has to be felt, full on, with all our emotions, feelings, fingers, breaths.

How could one just simply give up when all is against him/her? When all is telling him to keep on fighting, to keep on carrying on, to keep on learning, to keep on loving, to keep on continuing, to keep on sending good vibes, to keep on keeping and staying in touch, to keep on keeping the spirits up?!

All this is in my memory forever written, but so vivid yet, so real, I can even touch it! I believe in so many things that make it even more as an act of creation!

To be just a little bit more patient, to be just a little more present, to be heard and let heard.

What I can give you and what you can take away from me and vice versa? What are you currently working on? What can I write about this, what a woman's touch I can give to it and what man's touch you could give to my work? My head is spinning and my mind is running wild! I have so many ideas, so many feelings, so many emotions I want to share with you, and just with you.

I realize what we have done to each other, what we have contributed to one another's life on our journeys and what else is left? A brand new discovery, a brand new trip, a brand new story!

Just be here for me, just make me happy again, and I will return the favour ten folds.

Nothing is ever meant to be perfect! That is the point I am trying to make.

I cannot and I don't even want to take my mind of things, of all the times when we were and felt happy, when we have exchanged numerous songs and tunes, the moments when you really like me, when you and I have fallen in love. The millions of messages, the happy ones, the sad ones, the lonely ones, the open ones, everything that has actually brought us together again and again.

Perhaps, you are on a slightly different wavelength, yet I feel you can and should fall back in those moments when you feel safe and understood by me, the moments you feel appreciated and the moments you feel like a real man, to me! Always. Any time. Every time. With all your hidden blocks and secrets. I could open up to you and I welcome you to do the same! Please.

So.. happy leap day or year or whatever you want to call it!

That has been a while to spill the beans and write about them. And I double Thank you for your time & reading!!

confession: you refuse to blush with shame.

confession: you refuse to blush with shame.

There is a good time to be had & a confession to be made!

And because you refuse to blush with shame! 

Yes. 

You.

You. Refuse. To. Blush. With. Shame. 


Receiving is harder than giving. 

And comforting you is as important as shaking you up. 

Saying no to others means saying yes to yourself.

You have been sick and tired of being sick and tired. 
NOT any more.
NOT any longer.

You could cry your eyes and ears out. 

You could cut your heart wide open.

You could scream yourself to sleep.

You refuse to sit in a corner.

Giving up is not an option. Giving up is a choice. 

Screw you! Screw the entire world!!

You refuse to blush with a shame...... Yes, you do!

You chose to show your vulnerability. 

You embrace your insecurities.

You prefer to open up. 

You act upon your thinking. 

You learn from your mistakes.

You celebrate your achievements. 

You show your feelings. 

You stand up for your art. 

You are nothing but authentic.

You openly speak up. 

You prove your words.

You are humble in your approaches and opinions.

You chose to be happy!

You declare independence. 

You cherish the little things.

You savour the quiet days /minutes/seconds.

You admit your faults.

You value your time.

You seek only high moments. 

You have high standards for yourself.

You are liberated by your choices. 

You hold no grudges. 

You lead by an example.

You are high on emotions.

You have no judgements.

You care. You so f*cking care!!

And You also let go.....


Fake it till you make it. 

Fall flat on your face. 

Your health is your wealth!

It is what you make of it.



Period.

16 lessons a.k.a. The life on the wheels.

16 lessons a.k.a. The life on the wheels.

Many of us may have encountered an experience of staying and living in a hostel at some stage in our lives in one way or the other. 

Good or bad. 
Funny or embarrassing. 
Wild and free, and/or stale, plain boring and simple.

And I have had the privilege (and the pleasure) of doing just so. 

By the time I came to and was getting close to my stay here in the hostel, as I was nearing my end of it..

I have noticed and I have been a witness, of course, to a couple of things, here and there, such as:

I have lived for over 73 days in one stretch, all in one go, in the hostel. 

I have changed the rooms, too! How many times: 3 times? 18 mix dorm, 12 dorm. You name it!

1.  As we get older, we seem to and we tend to cherish our privacy more, washing your very own clothes in the nearby laundrette becomes a norm.

2.  We are all in this together, every single one of us, no exceptions there, indeed!

3.  Savour the little moments as they last the lifetime. And then all over again. 

4.  Be grateful, at all times. 

5.  Be open-minded.

6.  Be friendly. A friend may turn into a foe, a foe may turn into a friend. 

7.  Be all smiles all around.

8.  Don't burn all the bridges behind you.

9.  We make friends from all over the world, basically on a day to day basis.

10. You could even make more friends in a couple of days that you would have ever met in a year time! In a span of a year.

11. We may even perhaps become more like introverts if not already, or perhaps extroverts? Who knows?!

12. Never ever take anything and anyone for granted!! Hot/warm water might not be available for you the next morning...

13. Basically, rules go out of the window. Do I need to say more?

14. You may or you may not enjoy doing the little things for somebody else, rather than yourself.

15. You get to know your very person at the weirdiest times of times possible... really & truly.

16. You also begin loving and appreciating people around you more.. or less for that matter!

What happens inside you stays there, or not?

You get to have interesting conversations on a daily basis if only and when you are willing to open up enough to do so with people from all walks of life and all ages!

Would you know of anything else that could do it for you? You know the moment when you feel like enough is enough. There is a huge need to start over.

All in all, I have come to a conclusion that it is what you make of it, after all. It has always been that way. Simple as this, or as difficult as that. 

Fast forward up to now, and I am finding myself in a completely different situation.

If I knew better, what would I do? Would I change anything?

I would love to hear about your experience.. Are there any recalls? What were the drawbacks, if any, at all?

Please, let me know in the comments below. And thank you!

And it rained, and rained and rained all day long... free falling! What are you afraid of?

And it rained, and rained and rained all day long... free falling!

What are you afraid of?

It is said that we should ask the person we care about the most 3 questions: the first one is, What are they afraid of?, and the second and the third questions I do not really recall right now, but that is not a point. 

So, what are you afraid of?? About what, about who... you ask? 

This person's answer does say a lot about him/her.

When we are not afraid of much, we honestly do not care of the rest, either. Why would we? 

So....

Have you asked this very question yourself yet?

Being afraid of something means that you care, and you do care!

What am I afraid of myself?!

I am afraid of so many things... for instance: I am afraid of the feeling of unfairness. Should I embrace it? Definitely!

What else is there? I am afraid of loneliness. I am afraid of being terminally ill, of being unable to explain myself, of losing my 'voice', of not being heard, of not being able to help those I love and care about most, I am afraid of not being understood, of of of...

And yet I want to dance, and laugh and live,,,,.

I am pretty sure there are many more things to be afraid of. What is the lesson here, though?

There is no day that passes by when I do not THINK of my cat.

And it tears me apart and it breaks my heart. 

Ask me, how many times?

Should we take it all in as a part of life?

Life is not easy, most of you would agree with me, I believe! 

Every single one uf us may have a slightly different view on things, of course! The point is to learn about it, about its existence. 

What are we all scared about and of?

We all are, that is for sure...

But what is the main idea behind this all?

To me, in my opinion, it is here to wake us up, to feel the need to change and/or accept this, perhaps. To realize something, to realize the fact. 

Maybe we should get up and get going?

For something more that goes and is beyond us? Think and think hard again!

Something that is bigger than us!

Something that should teach us a lesson, most definitely. And something else there in between. We live therefore we feel therefore we care therefore we are afraid of stuff, etc. ...

Should we avoid it? Not necessarily. Not being afraid of anything at all? Is there a reason to this all? What could this be? What could this possibly be?

We can go back and forth and think again and hard. We could stand up to it and face it! And as strongly as we could possibly stand!

That's work in progress. 

come closer to me. {poetry}

http://www.rebellesociety.com/2014/07/01/come-closer-to-me-poetry/

31 connections of the soul — because love means never having to say you are sorry.

http://www.rebellesociety.com/2013/12/07/31-connections-of-the-soul-because-love-means-never-having-to-say-you-are-sorry/

transformation of love.

http://www.rebellesociety.com/2013/09/01/transformation-of-love/

Audrey Hepburn

Audrey Hepburn

I have recently had the pleasure of watching a documentary about this unique and special individual (to say the least!), Audrey Hepburn. It totally brought tears to my eyes!! What a strong, smart, passionate, curious, funny, caring, loving person she was!!!.....

A legend by her own standards.

If I was only partially like her, the people around me would be the most luckiest and the happiest human beings alive.

Feeling very humble.

You are my inspiration, my teacher, my mentor, my muse, my heroine,.... 

I love you. I honor you. I respect you. And I always will. 

You are so missed yet never far away!!

For ever & ever

Not all who wander are lost

Not all who wander are lost

Getting up in the morning AFTER you realize how lucky you actually are having a beautiful person with a beautiful soul liking you and taking a good care of you.


i can vs. I can't


too old to be working, too young to be living this way...

i can do so many things...

i can never ever give up

i can speak up my mind

i can choose to love

i can choose to forgive

i can influence my present and thus my future

is there anything i cannot do??

i can't change the past, obviously, but I am in control and in charge of making sure it does not screw up my present and my future!!..

P.S. I reckon this post needs to be updated on a regular basis...

Being 100% authentic!!!...

Being 100% authentic!!!...

How hard it can ever get to trust the process, to trust your instinct, to trust your intuition, to have faith that all is happening for you and not against you?

Can we be 100% authentic all of the time?

Can I myself be 100% authentic all of the time?

Yes, indeed, it is still work in progress.

Yes, indeed, I myself am still work in progress.

My goal for today and every day right after and the following is to be and to strive and to achieve being the most authentic person I can ever be!!.. Period.