LADDER AGAINST THE WALL

LADDER AGAINST THE WALL

You can help out and put a ladder against a wall for someone, yet he/she has to climb it up himself/herself!

Have you ever been drawn to some country and literally pulled towards it at every time?!

Have you ever thought of someone and felt being totally linked to this person?

How could ever words describe such states and such feelings?

What is going on in one's mind? Incredible stuff indeed! Everyone can tell of their own story. Yet, I could not help but wonder to ask you. To wonder about you and with you. To dream with you and to dream big, real big, that is! Why pulling one away?

When the line between us could and is so thin, so worth the wait, so worth the time, so worth the effort, so worth the energy! How would we recognize the free spirited ones? It is happy doing what he/she is doing, where she/he is currently at, etc. And you are this person to me, yet I know you cannot make it on your own. Why and how could I let this happen to you, and to us? When stubbornness hits, it can even breaks walls with the rocks. How much care should one show to the other in order to make sure and let them know that there is more to this and that, to anything at all, really!

Let the person be themselves and you can see their real face and experience their true soul. To understand someone, the other person, to understand you is what I am interested in and what interests me the most. When our mind wonders, we wonder, truly, too! We can absorb so many things when we are really open to accepting and observing. It hurts me that you cannot and do not want to see this, I really want you to understand this and more! How I wish you could! Sometimes I feel so lost and not sure of anything, not sure what to do next! And then I can feel full of energy and full of ideas.

This country, this mentality, this person, this everything will always stay with me. I cannot help it, I even think that in some way I even want this to be that way. To love and lost or to never love and lost? What could this get over it?

Is there any place, any person you are so linked with and to, so connected on a deeper level? I really wish there was! A free spirited person is one for me. What is he going to teach me and what am I going to learn from him? A lot! A plenty of lot! And much, much more!

Never ever give up on us! We have been through a lot! This days, weeks, months, years – this cannot be ever understood in 14 days!

This is really just a free flow writing. Yet, everything here is here for a reason! Let me get close to you, let me get even closer to you and I will make sure you know this is going to be beautiful, just and only beautiful!

Thank you so much for reading. The readers are my inspiration, the reason I am doing this! May you find enough reasons too.....

And thank you for showing up in my life in all those forms you have proven to me so well!

A LEAP DAY / YEAR

A LEAP DAY / YEAR

Today is a leap year, a leap day, to be exact!

What am I going to add to it? An extra something? And what about us? Can I be with you? Are we going to be together, if only via our minds, a mind by mind? I would like that very much, that would be nice.

Is there any extra that we could do more of today? If we were not to be thinking and talking just about this day and for the day that is in it, how else can I be and become a better version of myself, a better person? How I wish that! Not only I want us to collaborate together, to cooperate with each other, to get this thing up and running, that special something that we share, and with that special one you are good at, and with that special one I am good at, but I want even more than that!

The more you care, the stronger you can be!

May this happen very, very soon! That feeling that I have felt and still do, the connection that cannot be simply explained by plain words only but has to be felt, full on, with all our emotions, feelings, fingers, breaths.

How could one just simply give up when all is against him/her? When all is telling him to keep on fighting, to keep on carrying on, to keep on learning, to keep on loving, to keep on continuing, to keep on sending good vibes, to keep on keeping and staying in touch, to keep on keeping the spirits up?!

All this is in my memory forever written, but so vivid yet, so real, I can even touch it! I believe in so many things that make it even more as an act of creation!

To be just a little bit more patient, to be just a little more present, to be heard and let heard.

What I can give you and what you can take away from me and vice versa? What are you currently working on? What can I write about this, what a woman's touch I can give to it and what man's touch you could give to my work? My head is spinning and my mind is running wild! I have so many ideas, so many feelings, so many emotions I want to share with you, and just with you.

I realize what we have done to each other, what we have contributed to one another's life on our journeys and what else is left? A brand new discovery, a brand new trip, a brand new story!

Just be here for me, just make me happy again, and I will return the favour ten folds.

Nothing is ever meant to be perfect! That is the point I am trying to make.

I cannot and I don't even want to take my mind of things, of all the times when we were and felt happy, when we have exchanged numerous songs and tunes, the moments when you really like me, when you and I have fallen in love. The millions of messages, the happy ones, the sad ones, the lonely ones, the open ones, everything that has actually brought us together again and again.

Perhaps, you are on a slightly different wavelength, yet I feel you can and should fall back in those moments when you feel safe and understood by me, the moments you feel appreciated and the moments you feel like a real man, to me! Always. Any time. Every time. With all your hidden blocks and secrets. I could open up to you and I welcome you to do the same! Please.

So.. happy leap day or year or whatever you want to call it!

That has been a while to spill the beans and write about them. And I double Thank you for your time & reading!!

confession: you refuse to blush with shame.

confession: you refuse to blush with shame.

There is a good time to be had & a confession to be made!

And because you refuse to blush with shame! 

Yes. 

You.

You. Refuse. To. Blush. With. Shame. 


Receiving is harder than giving. 

And comforting you is as important as shaking you up. 

Saying no to others means saying yes to yourself.

You have been sick and tired of being sick and tired. 
NOT any more.
NOT any longer.

You could cry your eyes and ears out. 

You could cut your heart wide open.

You could scream yourself to sleep.

You refuse to sit in a corner.

Giving up is not an option. Giving up is a choice. 

Screw you! Screw the entire world!!

You refuse to blush with a shame...... Yes, you do!

You chose to show your vulnerability. 

You embrace your insecurities.

You prefer to open up. 

You act upon your thinking. 

You learn from your mistakes.

You celebrate your achievements. 

You show your feelings. 

You stand up for your art. 

You are nothing but authentic.

You openly speak up. 

You prove your words.

You are humble in your approaches and opinions.

You chose to be happy!

You declare independence. 

You cherish the little things.

You savour the quiet days /minutes/seconds.

You admit your faults.

You value your time.

You seek only high moments. 

You have high standards for yourself.

You are liberated by your choices. 

You hold no grudges. 

You lead by an example.

You are high on emotions.

You have no judgements.

You care. You so f*cking care!!

And You also let go.....


Fake it till you make it. 

Fall flat on your face. 

Your health is your wealth!

It is what you make of it.



Period.

16 lessons a.k.a. The life on the wheels.

16 lessons a.k.a. The life on the wheels.

Many of us may have encountered an experience of staying and living in a hostel at some stage in our lives in one way or the other. 

Good or bad. 
Funny or embarrassing. 
Wild and free, and/or stale, plain boring and simple.

And I have had the privilege (and the pleasure) of doing just so. 

By the time I came to and was getting close to my stay here in the hostel, as I was nearing my end of it..

I have noticed and I have been a witness, of course, to a couple of things, here and there, such as:

I have lived for over 73 days in one stretch, all in one go, in the hostel. 

I have changed the rooms, too! How many times: 3 times? 18 mix dorm, 12 dorm. You name it!

1.  As we get older, we seem to and we tend to cherish our privacy more, washing your very own clothes in the nearby laundrette becomes a norm.

2.  We are all in this together, every single one of us, no exceptions there, indeed!

3.  Savour the little moments as they last the lifetime. And then all over again. 

4.  Be grateful, at all times. 

5.  Be open-minded.

6.  Be friendly. A friend may turn into a foe, a foe may turn into a friend. 

7.  Be all smiles all around.

8.  Don't burn all the bridges behind you.

9.  We make friends from all over the world, basically on a day to day basis.

10. You could even make more friends in a couple of days that you would have ever met in a year time! In a span of a year.

11. We may even perhaps become more like introverts if not already, or perhaps extroverts? Who knows?!

12. Never ever take anything and anyone for granted!! Hot/warm water might not be available for you the next morning...

13. Basically, rules go out of the window. Do I need to say more?

14. You may or you may not enjoy doing the little things for somebody else, rather than yourself.

15. You get to know your very person at the weirdiest times of times possible... really & truly.

16. You also begin loving and appreciating people around you more.. or less for that matter!

What happens inside you stays there, or not?

You get to have interesting conversations on a daily basis if only and when you are willing to open up enough to do so with people from all walks of life and all ages!

Would you know of anything else that could do it for you? You know the moment when you feel like enough is enough. There is a huge need to start over.

All in all, I have come to a conclusion that it is what you make of it, after all. It has always been that way. Simple as this, or as difficult as that. 

Fast forward up to now, and I am finding myself in a completely different situation.

If I knew better, what would I do? Would I change anything?

I would love to hear about your experience.. Are there any recalls? What were the drawbacks, if any, at all?

Please, let me know in the comments below. And thank you!

And it rained, and rained and rained all day long... free falling! What are you afraid of?

And it rained, and rained and rained all day long... free falling!

What are you afraid of?

It is said that we should ask the person we care about the most 3 questions: the first one is, What are they afraid of?, and the second and the third questions I do not really recall right now, but that is not a point. 

So, what are you afraid of?? About what, about who... you ask? 

This person's answer does say a lot about him/her.

When we are not afraid of much, we honestly do not care of the rest, either. Why would we? 

So....

Have you asked this very question yourself yet?

Being afraid of something means that you care, and you do care!

What am I afraid of myself?!

I am afraid of so many things... for instance: I am afraid of the feeling of unfairness. Should I embrace it? Definitely!

What else is there? I am afraid of loneliness. I am afraid of being terminally ill, of being unable to explain myself, of losing my 'voice', of not being heard, of not being able to help those I love and care about most, I am afraid of not being understood, of of of...

And yet I want to dance, and laugh and live,,,,.

I am pretty sure there are many more things to be afraid of. What is the lesson here, though?

There is no day that passes by when I do not THINK of my cat.

And it tears me apart and it breaks my heart. 

Ask me, how many times?

Should we take it all in as a part of life?

Life is not easy, most of you would agree with me, I believe! 

Every single one uf us may have a slightly different view on things, of course! The point is to learn about it, about its existence. 

What are we all scared about and of?

We all are, that is for sure...

But what is the main idea behind this all?

To me, in my opinion, it is here to wake us up, to feel the need to change and/or accept this, perhaps. To realize something, to realize the fact. 

Maybe we should get up and get going?

For something more that goes and is beyond us? Think and think hard again!

Something that is bigger than us!

Something that should teach us a lesson, most definitely. And something else there in between. We live therefore we feel therefore we care therefore we are afraid of stuff, etc. ...

Should we avoid it? Not necessarily. Not being afraid of anything at all? Is there a reason to this all? What could this be? What could this possibly be?

We can go back and forth and think again and hard. We could stand up to it and face it! And as strongly as we could possibly stand!

That's work in progress. 

come closer to me. {poetry}

http://www.rebellesociety.com/2014/07/01/come-closer-to-me-poetry/

31 connections of the soul — because love means never having to say you are sorry.

http://www.rebellesociety.com/2013/12/07/31-connections-of-the-soul-because-love-means-never-having-to-say-you-are-sorry/

transformation of love.

http://www.rebellesociety.com/2013/09/01/transformation-of-love/

Audrey Hepburn

Audrey Hepburn

I have recently had the pleasure of watching a documentary about this unique and special individual (to say the least!), Audrey Hepburn. It totally brought tears to my eyes!! What a strong, smart, passionate, curious, funny, caring, loving person she was!!!.....

A legend by her own standards.

If I was only partially like her, the people around me would be the most luckiest and the happiest human beings alive.

Feeling very humble.

You are my inspiration, my teacher, my mentor, my muse, my heroine,.... 

I love you. I honor you. I respect you. And I always will. 

You are so missed yet never far away!!

For ever & ever

Not all who wander are lost

Not all who wander are lost

Getting up in the morning AFTER you realize how lucky you actually are having a beautiful person with a beautiful soul liking you and taking a good care of you.


i can vs. I can't


too old to be working, too young to be living this way...

i can do so many things...

i can never ever give up

i can speak up my mind

i can choose to love

i can choose to forgive

i can influence my present and thus my future

is there anything i cannot do??

i can't change the past, obviously, but I am in control and in charge of making sure it does not screw up my present and my future!!..

P.S. I reckon this post needs to be updated on a regular basis...

Being 100% authentic!!!...

Being 100% authentic!!!...

How hard it can ever get to trust the process, to trust your instinct, to trust your intuition, to have faith that all is happening for you and not against you?

Can we be 100% authentic all of the time?

Can I myself be 100% authentic all of the time?

Yes, indeed, it is still work in progress.

Yes, indeed, I myself am still work in progress.

My goal for today and every day right after and the following is to be and to strive and to achieve being the most authentic person I can ever be!!.. Period.

FLOATING....

FLOATING....

What could be floating for you?

Would you compare your life to a river, to a floating river, to a river that flows?

Should we and could we leave our lives and let our lives just be, just float, just let go of anything planned, anything expected and/or unexpected, etc. etc.?

Have we just been floating through life?

Are we, every single one of us just responding to life's questions by floating along?

How have you been floating?

How have you been responding?

How have you been dealing with life's questions?

:-)

Cave Men and Cave Women

Cave Men and Cave Women

Where would you go to retreat?

Where would you go to gain strength?

Where would you go to recharge your batteries?

Where would you go to relax?

Where would you go to unwind?

Where would you go to chill?

Where would you go to rest?

Where would you go to take a nap?

Would it be a person?

Would it be a place?

Would it be a food?

Would it be a song?

Would it be a book?

We all need those times, we all need those moments, we all need those special minutes just to ourselves.

We all need to spend a certain amount of time alone. Totally alone. Absorb all the good energy, absorb all the good vibes.

We also need change, we should crave it, we should be thirsty for it.

We all need from time to time to hide, to be unseen, to be left alone, to be unhear, to be silenced by ourselves.

What does it do for you?

I would say it definitely is worth thinking about.. :-)

What is life actually all about??

What is life actually all about?

Especially, in those special and perhaps even rare moments when you feel stuck. Stuck about not knowing what to do, stuck about not knowing what to say, stuck about not knowing where to go, etc. etc.

I personally believe these times are as important and vital as any others, of course.

In this way, you learn a great deal about yourself. You also learn patience, for instance, you learn about ideas and about creativity. You may even discover some hidden talents that you possess and had not ideas at all about. Or a lost book. Or a lost song. Or a lost band. Or a lost food. Or a lost ingredient. The list is endless, for sure.

I am wondering what would you say??

What is life actually all about in your humble opinion?

Life is about love.

Life is about giving.

Life is about receiving.

Life is about living.

Life is about sharing.

Life is about speaking up.

Life is about balance.

Life is about joy.

Life is about loving.

Life is about forgiving.

Life is about enjoying.

Life is about laughing.

Life is about healthy body.

Life is about healthy mind.

Life is about family.

Life is about friends.

Life is about books.

Life is about education.

Life is about learning.

Life is about commitment.

Life is about never giving up.

Life is about faith.

Life is about smiling.

Life is about children.

I could go on and on and on about what life is actually all about.

And I am pretty sure you would be able to add some of your ideas and insights.

Life is good & life is great!!

Thank you!!

:-)

The Dalai Lama - "The World Will Be Saved By the Western Woman"

The world will be saved by the western woman.

The Dalai Lama - "The World Will Be Saved By the Western Woman"

Have you heard this one before?

And of course, understandably, I could not help but wonder: what did he actually mean by that?

I am a woman. A very strong one as it is, I must humbly add and admit.

I believe I am well read and well travelled, too. I have a deep, longing desire to help people on a daily basis.

I crave love, so much, actually. Like deep breathing. Like a necessity.

I am very patient, an extremely patient person.

Sometimes I could go on and on without stopping and without even realizing that I do actually need to stop and think!!

We could possible never see inside somebody else's mind and head, not to even mention The Dalai Lama's.

What I am pretty sure of is that time will tell more, in a due future. As we all will see soon.

I personally love that statement, for no apparent reason. It feels as if it sort of resonates with me on one or the other level.

How can this get any better than that?!?!

So, there were some of my musings for today....

Thank you!!!

Balance – has there always need to be??!

Balance – has there always need to be??!

It has been said that the life is one of an balancing act. Agree or disagree?

How many experiences like that are going to pass your path?

Have you been grateful for every single one of them?

Have you been taking something or somebody for granted?

Balance between a negative and a positive.

Balance betwwen being nice and kind and being nasty and mean.

Balance between being naughty and being real sweet.

Balance between giving and receiving.

Balance between being full and being hungry.

Balance between feeling tired and feeling bursting with energy.

Balance between being fulfilled and being unsatisfied.

Balance between being happy and being sad.

Have you ever experienced the moment when the two of you are discussing a certain topic or whatever and then just between both of you is a sense of a balance in a way where one of you is behaving like the more responsible one and the other one as if nothing really mattered in the world??

Perhaps it is the energy between the couple that for one and another reason has to be in balance.

Like today you have been having a great day and tomorrow is or may not be such a wonderful day, after all.

THAT is very interesting indeed......