a photo worth a thousand words

a photo worth a thousand words

We can go so far describing anything on the whole world and then someone can put a photo in front of us, without saying a beep and we know exactly. We know exactly what is going on, we know exactly what we are feeling, we know exactly what is the right thing to do or say.

Without saying a word, the picture can go deeper. The picture can describe the story that has never yet been written. The picture can tell the story that nobody has written about.

One fine spring photo, or a summer one, or fall covered in leaves, or white winter, they can all say much in just one quick look. Page after page and after page can be written about such photographes.

The beauty is in the eye of beholder. Who is holding the camera? Who is looking through the lenses? Who is spying the perfect picture object? Who is looking and searching for what he/she is finding right now, at the moment?

Who can see the little specs of beauty where nobody sees anything at all? Who can see everything around him/her beautiful when somebody else sees only darkness and dullness and emptiness?

There is a bit of beauty everywhere around us if we are only willing to go after it, search it and look for it and find it.

And here comes the part I like the best. To go and search for and find the beauty that seemingly looks as if there is no beauty at all. To find always something beautiful in ugliness, to find something beautiful in that which is broken, what is half done or undone, that is unfinished, that is incomplete.

To find a piece of beauty in a vase that is broken on the left bottom, yet it still remains beautiful, to find a beauty in a woman who does not feel beautiful at all, or a man or a child, or a chair or a table or a plate.

We should always do that, we should always aim for looking for something beautiful and gorgeous in every single and each day!

Even the words have their own energy.

Let's see what we can do today and tomorrow and the day after tomorrow. Just to go ahead, look and find it!

Thank you for reading!!

Last sleep at da house...

Last sleep at da house...

Last sleep till the new chapter begins.

When one door closes, must there be one that opens, widely.

What are we going to dream about tonight, if anything at all comes along?

When moving brings itself about in your life, that appears to be a sense of not knowing what is coming next, where you will be heading this time, where you are going alone, when, with whom, under what circumstances?

Moving places, or houses, or even countries always brings a change, or two. Meeting new people, new neighbour, new places to see and to visit, perhaps even restaurant to eat at!

Something to look forward to, and nobody can tell who or what that is! Hopefully, that is the way in the right direction, perhaps new opportunities arise as well.

Some people may not like moving, even moving to places closer to them, or for a short time. Holidays may be perfect opportunities to try and see for yourself without the need to worry about to much stuff to take with them, not to worry about paperwork, or anything along those lines.

I have personally moved many times, living abroad has taken its toll, moving here and there, short term or long term. All the luggages, all the suitcases, all the books, all the music, all the photos, etc.

No more coming back to this place, no more sleeping in my bed, no more eating at the dining table, no more cooking in a lovely kitchen, no more relaxing on the sofa, no more going down and up the stairs, no more having showers in the bathroom. The garden will always be kept safely in my mind for ever!

Memories and all the happy moments that come with feelings and emotions.

Have you done any moving recently, or in the past that you can recall properly, to the very last minute?

I would love to hear that, please, share!

Thank you!! :-)

from 4 seasons in 1 day.. (yours truly!)

from 4 seasons in 1 day..

(yours truly!)

From spring, summer through fall to winter.

From hate back to love.

From death to life!

From me to you, to him.

From sadness and sorrow, to happiness and joy..

From sickness back to health.

From black & white to colourful!

From school home and vice versa.

From night to day.

From crying to laughing!

From the break-down to the break-through.

From water back to sand..

From silence to noise, etc.

One, just one day only, can offer us a spectrum of variabilities in a sense of opportunities that can be felt and seen and experienced by us.

When setback hits us straight in our face, what then? What are we going to do? How are we going to react? How are we going to cop on if necessary?

When the seasons change, something right after must surely come! Good or bad, or even better, and he best!

After the lack of anything must surely come back in place a genuine interest.

Like being on a sea -saw, up & down, in & out, push & pull,..

From the bottom line we only have to go up!

When the stress from the outside world can totally wear us out, we can only expect to have things turned upside down, there is only one way to go and that is the way to improve, to way to celebrate, to way to enjoy, finally!

And that is it! 

Thank you!!

The other side of the coin

The other side of the coin

What is on the other side of the coin?

What could there be when things go wrong and what could be there when thing go right? Black and white. Yin and yang. Ups and downs. Highs and lows.

I have always been fascinated by words, ever since I was able to write and talk.

Every day brings something that has never been here before, something new, something exciting, something sad, something to think about, someone to love.

Every day we learn or at least we should, we receive something and we try and give something back.

There is a chapter that leaves us wondering. Wondering about what is coming next, what was the lesson we should take from this, what we should avoid as quickly as humanly possibly, what is no longer serving us.

To act with passion and respond to anything that comes our way. The negative turns into positive and vice versa.

For time and time over, the journey of sadness and frustration must most definitely turn into something full of love, kindness, gentleness and fruitful things.

After rejection comes appreciation.

After hate comes love.

After a busy day comes a relaxation.

After a sleep comes worthwhile work.

After teaching comes a lesson.

After a question comes an answer.

After a silence comes a noise. You make a noise, and I make a noise. Without a pain there would not be a progress. After a heartache, there should not come a real love and appreciation, feelings of being grateful and thankful for anything that we have been granted with!

So much to say, so much to do, so much to become, so much to think about, so much to consider, yet, the time seems never be stopping, working for everybody the same way since a long, a very long time ago!

To turn the page and be curious about your next step. About the journey he is going to embark on, about the life she is looking forward to living and enjoying. About the things I am exciting about having been born.

What does the future has in store? What does the future hold for one's precious thing? At the moment, certainly not in a position of answering this...

Thank you for the time reading this!!

the energy you give out and you get back.

the energy you give out and get back.

The energy.

The substance we are all surrounded by. Every living thing. At every moment.

At every occasion. We are built of energy. Every touch we send out, every thought that is directed to and for someone else. Either, this thought is full of love and appreciation, or the energy is inside of out trying to get out with its full power.

Make sure that the energy you give out is full of love, appreciation, kindness and authenticity. Karma is at play at every moment, to your advantage, from the energy you give out to others. We have no idea what others are going through. We have no idea what they have been through over this current day.

The thoughts about and for him are send with all the love and appreciation that I could muster. And why? Because the connection is very strong, we have so much in common, we have been through a lot and there is no way back, just to look back at all that was giving us shivers down the spine. The little sweet moments, the messages, all those little maybe seemingly not important things who at the very least turned into the most profound feelings and emotions ever created by 1 person, and 2 people!

Can you see this? Every single email directed to you? With good intentions? I do not believe you want to cause any harm to anybody. Maybe, we have lost a track there, for a while, yet this is why it makes it so worthwhile. We have gained much understanding about each other. We have learnt what the other like and possibly do not like. We have started appreciating one another more and what could be more loving, more beautiful, more passionate, more enjoyable, more curious, more interesting than that??

Please, do know I have always liked you, a lot, and you know very well what that means. You have said that, too, many times, and I know it was real. You were real. We were real.

I am only here to make things better for you, to shake it up, possibly, here and there. To make sure you know I mean well for you and always have! You are not alone, please, talk to me, share with me, give me your love, again, and all over again!

Where have you been? What have you been up to? How is everything with you and our favourite band?? You are missed and your are needed, for the best of reasons!!

Thank you!!

when Questions get Answered

when Questions get Answered

1 question

2 questions

3 and more questions.

I love asking questions. To me it is the way to get to know someone closer or to get to know the information I am seeking for. To learn about things around me. Rather than speaking and talking all the time, just to take a moment or two or a real and deep listening to somebody or to something. We always learn more by listening than chatting, speaking about things and stuff that we already know about just to pass on the information to some other person/people.

Everyone has a question or a million of questions. You, me, he, she, they, a child. Children at school should be taught how to ask the right questions. If you do not like or you are not happy with the answer, well, try and ask a better question! Works like a charm! Every time.

I have many questions on my mind, yet, at the same time, there should be a space left that would leave me wondering. Wondering about the things that happened in the past and could teach me a lesson or two, wondering mostly about what is going on and happening right now, at this very moment, and, also, what the future has in store for me and the people I care about!

To take time and just see where this is going to take me, you, us. Should we dig deep or just let it be and be curious about what is coming next, right after, and live more or less for this very moment, right now – enjoying this very time that cannot be replaced by anything, by anyone! Should be preferably just go with the flow, slowly, floating, finding our way along the way, as the river does?!

To read one's mind. What is going on there? What is he feeling? What is he thinking about? What are his plans? What are his fears? What are his questions? To ask and get the answers. And vice versa.

We may be at the point, as in any other in the past, when we do need to realize that not everything should be totally and absolutely clear for us! The unique feeling of not knowing and of exploring the world that has been properly hidden before us, some time ago – long or short!

Perhaps we should as well embrace the unknown!!

And I may be never get this question answered, after all, and I guess that is okay, too!

Thank you for your time reading this!

Drink it up!!

Drink it up!!

drink it up!

Drink it up!

Drink It up! Get him to buy you more. And eat well!

Anything that comes to us, that we find on the table, all that we have on our plate. Good, bad, the best and the better, the worst. Anything and everything.

Enjoy it and drink it up.

How could we go if not by all our hearts?

Doing things only half way through will catch up with us, sooner or later. Every day is something that can surprise us in a way that we do like but also in ways that we do not like and welcome. Shutting down before this is not a solution. Talking over with someone you trust could help in many ways. Taking time to think, to reconsider, to check, to see if there are other ways to go about this.

If we want things to work, we have to be committed. I have to be committed enough, you have to be committed enough and together we can solve this to our satisfaction.

Opening up when things do not work for us, when things do not match our expectations, when we do not feel well, when we would like to add something more to this here and there.

To admit that we do not know, to admit that we have no energy left at the moment, to admit that we have made a mistake, to admit that we are not sure, to admit anything that shows that we are just a human being that is authentic in her/his actions and words.

That long story is still unfolding, with surprises along the way. The journey is open. The future is still in front of us.

May all have enough patience to go through all the pages of this story in this book. Thank you! And drink it all up!!

bringing back memories...

bringing back memories...

One aspect of life – memories.

We could look them in the eye, turn it around, twist it to the left and twist it to the right, we can walk over them, we can chew on them, spit them out, swallow them, gabble them down and drink them together with our favourite drink. We can use them, we can use them, we can cry over them, we can rely on them, we can laugh with them and at them, think of them all day long, without stopping, and yet, still, here they are again – with all their beauty. We cannot possibly escape this trap, if you will!

We can take advantage of them, we can use them as much as they can use us! And then we are going to find ourselves back on the treadmill. Sweating, beating ourselves out, complaining, not being happy and satisfied just about anything and anybody.

My memories, my stories, my life, my editing, my putting words together. You will always stay in my heart. I would not possibly forget the first day you have opened up. I would still remember the moment I was so happy. In a childish way. I will always remember the day I was sad and felt lonely, was alone. How could I ever forget the moment you kissed me in a (only you know!) for the very first time. I will still keep in my heart and soul your words you have spoken to me. I will also keep the moment close to my heart when I left home and fly over the big ocean. Without knowing where this is going to lead, how this is going to end. What and who is awaiting me over there and with what? I remember my first time at the enormous airport. The challenges that I have been through, and again, how could I ever forget the day when you mentioned the 'B' word. When you have fought for me in a way that has touched me so immensely that it cannot be matched! You will never leave my place and space in my heart, close to my soul. Ever! Do I know what I feel what I feel? No idea, at all!

My first ever blog post. And all the first times that cannot possibly be replaced. The people I have met and helped me in more way that I could have imagined. And the rest, too! The day I thought I was going out of my mind, insane in every way the person could find yourself. The never ending story about thinking of you, talking to you, touching you and you being absolutely in heaven! The funny moments, and memories that I share, that we share together. My own thing, my own life, nobody can ever touch this unless permitted. My chapters, my pen and pencil, my rules, my ideas, my agreements. My blank page that has been going to be filled with words and emotions every single and each day. Wait and see and you will see a lot happening....

Thank you!!

Fake it till you (make it) become it!!

Fake it till you (make it) become it!!

Imagine a dream, a situation, a scenario, a story, a goal that you want to go after, you want to achieve, you want to see come to a total completion. Yes, as a person, as people, we have been fighting the inner war with ourselves. No matter what we say to ourselves, no matter what others keep telling us, not matter how good and smart and intelligent others find us, we still have moments, days and occasions that this feeling can slowly fall upon ourselves and we can get stuck. All of a sudden, that dream, that situation, that scenario, that story or a goal suddenly becomes unreachable for us, so distant, so out of touch and now what? What are we going to do in order to get back right on the track where the ride was smooth, easy and enjoyable..

What would be the right recipe that would perfectly work for you and fit with all your standards? Has anything work out for you in that way? If so, what was that?

What if we 'pretend' through all the steps till the end as if we knew what we are doing? Believing so strongly in our abilities, in our skills that nothing and/or anybody could ever stop us! While, at the same time, becoming the person you intend to be, alas the work in progress at play!

When one feels the struggle inside, yet is not ready to give up just yet or has not association with quitting whatsoever, at all!

When the reasons are much, much more bigger than all the whys along the way.

When you are sick and tired of all the excuses and sorrys, there is only one way to go and that is straight up, without turning and stopping anywhere, not even for a second!

Your reasons could be anything, ranging from complete make up dreams to a meeting with the person of your wildest dreams and desires. Only you can judge, only you can decide what matter the most up to you, what has the most meaning to you, what is the most worthwhile thing to pursue!

Fake it till you make it, if you will. And fake it till you actually become it. When the dream becomes a reality and you have lost yourself in the process of becoming without even realizing it. 

Give it a try and go and see it for yourself :-)

THE STRONGEST CONNECTION EVER

THE STRONGEST CONNECTION EVER

If you are really lucky enough and have experienced at some point in your life or have been currently experiencing the strongest connection there ever is and was or has been, I argue you to hold on to it so tightly that even the loudest and the most dangerous and worst storm could not ever separate you from such a rare condition!

Tomorrow may never come, the moment to enjoy its all that has to offer is right now, at this very moment. The person may change in a way that you would not recognize them, any longer. Or you may change yourself. And, suddenly, you can find yourself stuck in one place, on a ride that does not seem to be leading anywhere.

I feel this connection so deep and so profoundly that nobody can ever tell me otherwise. I have felt that when we first met, and then the second time and the time after. I have felt that the first time I heard your voice, from the way you write, from the way you express yourself through emotions and feelings and the way you use art as a way of being home. The music you create and have shared with me, even though nobody before has had the chance of listening to it, yet, I was the chosen one. And I thank you for that!

From the way you have first touched me and kissed me. From the way you use your hands. From your ideas, your opinions, and from your views on yourself and the world around us. I will never forget all this and more that we have done together, so snuggled up, warm, nice, cozy, lovely & loving. You will always stay in my heart, deep down and very well rooted!

And from the way how you deal with your fears, and insecurities, how you deal with life's setbacks, and deals that do not seem to be working for you.

Very slowly, with hands, tongues, mouths, we unwrapped and untied ourselves, laying open gifts. Gave birth to each other again, as separate bodies who enjoy collision.

Anaïs Nin 

“I want to both combat you and submit to you, because as a woman I adore your courage, I adore the pain it engenders, I adore the struggle you carry in yourself, which I alone fully realize, I adore your terrifying sincerity. I adore your strength.” ~ Anaïs Nin to Henry Miller

The reasons about why I feel the way I do and why my heart and soul has chosen you, I cannot give to you, at least, not for the moment, I suppose it was meant to happen that way.

May you see this, too, feel this, too, may you understand this. I am genuinely interested, I have opened up to you in many, many ways, I care about you. The music, the art you have shared with me will always be there with us together.

Yours in loving way...

Things that cannot be measured

Things that cannot be measured

I believe that there are many things that cannot be measured, in a way that we cannot put a price tag on them or anything like this! Things that are priceless, that make our day, that put smile on our faces, that send shivers down our spine, that make us stop and think and perhaps reconsider.

That text I received from you the other day, the little things that matter and make a huge difference. Sometimes we may even think that no, it does not matter, they do not have a time and energy and patience to go through this with us, yet, only one simple short word, a message, a song, a link, a photo, an article, a moment, a piece of stone or any natural things, this and all that can be just a one stop closer to make one's heart jump and skip the beat!

And yes, we all have this in our power. So, let us not think too much, not take too much time, not take ourselves way too seriously. The moment is right here and right now and it is as precious as one can ever get and be! So, do what your heart desires and craves, be clear and specific about what you intend on doing and saying, where and when you intend on going and why so and with whom?

All those moments and pieces can be put together like a jigsaw puzzle! So simple, so easy, so direct!

Let us go and make every day, every thing we have, every word we say, every action we take, let us make it all count! Let us make sure we can go to bed soundly tonight and dream sweet dreams. Let us make this world a better place for ourselves and for those around us. Let us make sure that our words precisely match our actions. Actions speak louder than words. Watch his/her actions and then decide whether to go with it or not. Do not just read and adjust to the circumstances of words that can easily fall apart, just like that, leaving no trail behind it.

Every small action, count. Karma. Whether deliberately done, on purpose, or by accident. We are the creators, so let us stand up, shout out what we feel is the right thing and do not fear and fears but face them with the face expression that nothing can ever stand against it!!

I have been thinking of you, you have been on my mind, you are my light at the end of the tunnel, the light that still shines and I am going to make sure this light will never be blurred or put down by wind or any other circumstances or situation.

Please, show up, stand up and show that you care, that you words match the action to the very last bit!!

Thank you, and I appreciate you for reading!

Why should I/you/we not give up?!

Why should I/you/we not give up?!

Giving up is so easy, actually, way too easy to do so. Falling into a tram of giving up and never starting again. Never going for anything with your whole being, with all the energy that you could gather. One mistake and the next comes quitting, totally giving up on a chance of doing this ever again! That is it, no more trying, no more going on.

The feeling as if no one understands you, nobody could ever feel it the same way you do feel it. No body can really experience the pain, the emotions, the sorrow, the feelings attached to this, so vividly, so strongly, so like you. We should give up, and so thus we gave up. That is the limit and beyond there is no reason for you to go there. There is no choice, not carrying on with it, at all. Feeling of lost, feeling of disconnection, feeling of devastation, feeling of being out of this world. The crying is so hard, that you cannot possibly collect yourself.

And this person is still on your mind. The lover, the soul-mate in many ways, the inspiration that has always worked for you. The muse that can ignite anything that you have inside and even more than that, you have had no idea what you consist of! And we are just scratching the surface. To collect that all and make it complete!

Your mind is going dizzy, you have been forgetting things, way too often. Is there any help at hand? Is there any way to get out of this!?

I am feeling so weak, so out of sorts, so out of sync. You are missed just for who you are. For all that we have been through, for all the words that people can say to me and none of it will partly be about what I have felt when with you in person, the connection that we have shared, the meal that we have enjoyed, the drinks that we have had!

We all need certain stuff to survive. There is no other way around this. Accumulate this and all may as well fall into place. Generally, this being the truth, we are so close to make it a reality. By the same token, we could also do similar things in order to make it acceptable to us, to live the way we want and desire. To enjoy every and each aspect of life – mind, soul, body, heart!

I am tired of this happening again. We have a choice and it is up to us how we are going to handle this. Throw it out the window or keep it safe and warm close to our heart?!

No sorrys, no apologies, no regrets, no hurt, no pain, no hate, no being lost, no crying any more. This must stop, for you and me and for us and for everybody and anyone around!

There is no better time to do so than NOW!!

I want more, not just be aware, but to feel, to be, to love and to be loved.

For each one of you out there....

Thank you for your time and reading it this :-)

The Story that is still unfolding...

The Story that is still unfolding...

And it is your story. The story that you have been writing the moment you have seen the light of this world, from the moment you have heard the voices of your loved ones.

Sometimes, your story can also begin unfolding when something unexpected happens to you, actually. The love, the situation, the circumstance, the winning something to you special and meaningful. The the cards of the fate are playing for you..

The most important part for me in this is that the pen who you are holding in your hand is yours. You are the writer, the author of your story, you are the creator of each and every chapter of your Life story.

For you.. how would you like your story to go? How would you like it to continue? How would you make it to carry on the way that works best for you? And with whom? Is there someone, special and unique in your eyes, that you find interesting and would love to get to know better? Someone who makes you want to know them more and more? Someone that you are so curious about learning their ways and habits, are characteristic traits? Someone who keeps getting back on your mind again and all over again? Who is it? Have you contacted them lately? Do you have a strong intuitive thinking about this very person? What does your intuition tell you, where does it lead you?

Who has been the safe and loving haven? Who has been there for you? Would you share and open up your story to and with them? Would you like them to be a part of your story? Would you ask them questions about their story? Would you make something nice for them, the way you know them, the way you know they can appreciate it?

To love and to be loved in return! Is there anything else in the whole world, on the whole earth?

Make it count! Make sure the story you have writing has a purpose, has a reason, has a legacy that lives on for ever and ever! Make sure you touch the people around you in a way that they would be never ever able to repay your kindness, love, patience, tolerance, compassion, time.

I am still work in progress, in so many ways. But I will keep trying and hopefully can touch one's life in a way that is going to turn his life upside down, in the best way possible!

Thank you for taking time to read this!!

Counting the stars you possess (and the voices in my head)

Counting the stars you possess

(and the voices in my head)

The stars and all the little & big miracles.

When we look up at the stars in the sky at night, we could be lucky enough to stare, to observe and to spot miracles there when they are clearly visible. Using the metaphor here, we could also look for the miracles and stars in our own life. Sometimes, we may be luckier than at other times. Sometimes we may need to try a little bit harder to see, to feel, to experience such a beauty!

When we can be really grateful and appreciate anything that comes our way, feel thankful for even small, seemingly insignificant things, I believe something magical is just about going to happen.

The voices in my head is telling me this and telling me that. Should I listen to them? Should I follow through? Should I be ignoring them and shut them up for good? Should I be keen on listening to anything/everything they say to me? What are they, actually? Could this be my intuition? Could this be something that is helping me in any situation I find myself in? Could these be working for me and not against me?

Stars, such as family, having a loving and caring partner, a healthy baby, work that you really enjoy, house that is yours, an organic tree and garden, a dog or a cat, friends who you can call at any time of the day, parents, a stunning nature to be surrounded around, clean environment, lovely meals, beautiful sunsets/sunrises, etc.

The voices, these strings of intuition that have always been on your side. The voices that are here to show you the way, tell you what to say to whom, where to go and what to do. The voices that keeps you out of danger, that lights up when the emergency is coming, the voices that prevents you from falling, that warns you, etc.

How can we mix those 2 together? The voices + stars? The intuition + magics? Could we possibly intuitively go after all the stars? Can we search for them, seek them out, look for them in all the hidden places, in all those places that are invisible to those who do not practice gratitude and beings thankful and grateful? There surely is a way!

I am hoping they will be always clear to my face, and for you, too, and for anyone interested. 

Thank you for reading!!

The most beautiful of all souls

The most beautiful of all souls

The person.

Everywhere.

At any time.

To and with just about anyone.

The heart, the mind, the spirit.

This person is free in any way that can be. You feel free in their presence. You feel yourself, you feel being loved right now and tomorrow, too! You feel inspired, you feel grateful and full of love. You feel being yourself in the most beautiful way of ways! There is no judgement, there is no arrogance, there is no hatred.

There is only a lot of love, compassion, understanding, patience, tolerance, acceptance, space and time, commitment, strength and much, much more!

Free soul is a rare soul. You recognize it by the feeling that you have when around them. You can open up and they would be there, you could show up in a negative way and they will not shut you up and close the door behind you – rather, they would show you the way and accept you for just the way you are! They would not laugh at your ideas, they would give you their time, so you can slowly tell what is on your mind. They would give you space when the space may be needed so!

They are the example. They are the way, there are the lesson, the path, the reason.

They are the home you come back to, you put your heavy head on the pillow and soundly fall asleep.

They represent the answer why you want to be a better person, why you do what you do, why you say what you say, why you go where you go.

If we see these qualities in someone and at the same time are able to recognize them in ourselves, we, too, must possess those qualities, and those unique characteristic traits.

Seek it and find it. Hope and accept it when it comes. Love and be loved in return. Give and you will be given tenfold back. Smile and the world smiles right back at you!

Thank and you will feel grateful.

Thank you for your time and reading!!

Tears in order to find yourself!...

Tears in order to find yourself!...

A person could go through tons and tons of emotions during one single day! I can claim that as I can be also used as a proof of this!

One can cry, one can laugh out loud, one can smile at someone, one can laugh at yourself, one can love someone, one can hate things here and there, one can make silly jokes. One can make yourself go nuts, one can make yourself feel totally devastated. One can make yourself absolutely depressed. One can make yourself amazingly happy an those around them, too! One can teach others and one can also by taught by someone. One can feel a total pleasure, and one can touch the very rock bottom! One can feel as if they are reaching the best moment in their lives ever! One can by on total high or at the same time being on a total low...

When we reach the very low, there is, obviously no other way then get back up again and get and be better and better at working on ourselves. We can experience a fairy tale on a daily basis or else it could feel as if living in a total hell and only surviving the nightmare. The choice is up to us.

And then here come the tears.. that open up a brand new world to you up for your grabs! One or two tears, if you will, that can break the moment for you when you can say yourself that this is not going to happen, ever again! These moments can strike at any time, for any length, for many reasons, alone or with the company.

You have happen to come into my life. You have been on my mind, you have been on my mind for some months now, actually. If you could only cuddle me up being close to you. Snuggle up and stay like this till morning and then even harder and not letting go.. That is actually what you have wanted, what you have told me. In fact, I have missed the times we have been in contact, those butterflies feelings we both felt, so strongly! It has always been you and you must know this. And I know you have felt the same, not admitting this, but yes, it has been there. Day after day after day. I could cry my eyes out in order to bring you closer to me, to get in touch again, to have met again, to have spoken together again, to share music together again.

I have no idea where you are at the moment, but everything I have every shared with you was honest, loving, pure, authentic and genuine, as genuine as it can get. You are the person I care about, I think about day in and day out, my care and love in endless!

One can only and must get better now. Realize it and make it happen at whatever cost! Time is precious, oh, so precious!! There is not time to wait, as the preparation for anything is always before this thing actually comes your way. There is only way that is best for you, in your eyes, in your feelings and with your intuition!

There is so much my heart can give away...