When the mind is free to choose.....

When the mind is free to choose.....

Whatever! When are we truly free to choose anything, and at any time? Whenever! Whenever? Really? Are we truly our very own enemies and friends at the same time? And what are we going to do about this? Is it to our advantage or disadvantage? What are we doing when the mind is stronger than our own decisions? When you feel so weak, when the energy is so low, when you jump from up and down, when you feel as if being on a rollercoaster? When you are so looking forward to coming back to bed, to coming back to sleep! When you just do not want to give up, when the odds are against you, so, what do you then? When the person you care about very much does not seem to understand or do not want to hear and all you want to do is share all your feelings with this person, from time to time, to stay and to keep in touch. When all the sad things in the world just bring you down and you find it so hard to get up over and over again! When you do not want to lose the time that you both shared. Please, listen up, listen up to me again because I have only nice things to say, really. Really! You must be hurt, perhaps, very hurt. I do not believe people want to hurt others. We are meant to collaborate, to connect, to communicate, to help each other, to contribute to each other's life in good ways! I beg the one who is guiding me, my soul, to show me the way, the right way how to approach. Please, help me to get understood, help me to get heard! Should I read your mind, should I let you read my mind? My energy is flowing through my body, through my veins, through my legs, through my hands, through my fingers, through my head, through my hair, through my skin, through my stomach, through my everything that my energy can get through! I have a certain time here, and you have certain time here, none of us knows how long this is going to be for! What does this represent? This time is going so fast, my fingers and my mind keep moving in a fast paced speed and I wish to do this and to do that, with you and alone and together, too, of course! I want to understand you and I want you to understand me. The article is about this one thing and even maybe more? The day after today is the day I would want you to know about in a way that you would appreciate and acknowledge! You really need to know this, you really need to want to hear about this! Do I really know you? Do you know the person I have chatted to and step by step fallen in love with? I know you have too. Do not be so hard on me, do not be so strict with me, I am aware of what exactly I am asking for! I wish for all who are swimming in the same or the similar seas to be heard, to feel the freedom of being yourself with the person that is very important for them! Please, have me in your mind, have me on your phone, get and stay and keep in touch! I have a lot to learn from you and you have a lot to learn from me, from one another, we can learn a plenty of lessons! The touch of my finger on your body, the touch of my hand on your face, the sweet breath near your year, you touching me and me touching you, the sweet sensation in so many ways beautiful, so exciting, to liberating, so gorgeous, so loving, so great and even greater! The line is so close, the line is so drawn close for us. For people who are genuine in their hearts and in their souls. Be and stay strong and you will be happy with yourself and so satisfied with the way you are and behave! I will be grateful if you would. And thank you again!!

HAPPY ST. PATRICK'S DAY!!

HAPPY ST. PATRICK'S DAY!!

One of my favourite festive days! The 17^th, March. How I want to celebrate this together with you! All the parade, all the greens, all the black, all this and more, with you! There could be photos taken, there could be videos taken, there could be picture painted, there could be song sung on and about this very day! Come closer to me and I am going to whisper in your hear all the things I want to do with you and to you on this St. Patrick's Day! Have you got any ideas? How would you like to celebrate? What would you love to be doing? There are many ways, many places to go to, many foods to try and eat, many drinks to try and eat, many songs to sing along to! Or we can just chill and relax and unwind in your bed, in my bed, in our bed. We can talk about everything, we can talk funny, we can talk serious, we can mean business, we can go down to a real business, we can pretend, we can be happy and cheerful, and smiley, we can be up to anything that our minds conceive, we can plan or we can be spontaneous, we can play hard and work harder or we can work hard and play even harder! Everything and anything is allowed in our universe! Everything has green in our minds! We can create and make a detailed plan or we can just play around and go with the flow, with the flow of all the things that surround us! Anything that comes to your mind? Is there anything that you can come up with that would engage all of our senses? Anything that would mess up with our minds and bodies and souls, in a good way, that is, of course! I am so tired, would you like to cuddle up with me, would you snuggle up with me? How much love can we share together? Hoping to hear your voice again, feeling so good afterwards! And I know you do to!! Can we be gentle with each other again, that is what seems to do the magic! It calms you down and it stirs me up, and again, all in a good way! We do this to each other, the feelings and emotions that help us both grow in a most meaningful way, you stir me up as a person, and I slowly calm you down. The best possible versions of ourselves. I need your energy, I crave it. Show me, that you need mine, as well. Please, prove it with a sign that is loving (you know what I mean!) and that I understand. I will be waiting. The question of starting the family is so, just so beautiful. Thank you! I will write and write and write and I will write some more! So this goes viral. And we can collaborate together very soon! How I wish and I feel so grateful to be alive and healthy and the same for you! The most important things in life cannot be bought by money, they have to be felt by heart, they have to be felt by our souls, together! May it be shown to you by me, I could not possibly wish for more than this! Is this crazy, is this insane, is this mad? Maybe, but that is me, and you is you and we are all in this together! So, thank you very much dear St. Patrick's day for showing me and introducing me to all the wonders that you have, for all the traditions, for all the love, for all the sweets, for all the music, for all the food, for all the drinks. For everything! Touch me again the way you only can, touch my soul in a way that only you can touch! Can you completely give up yourself to me and trust me totally? I certainly can deal with that! The days, the hours, the sooner we can jump on the horse, the sooner we can enjoy the amazing ride! That is for sure and I can promise you that you will not be disappointed. As always, thank you! Thank you so very much!!

The story of our days....

The story of our days....

What is your story of your days?

This is the story of our days.. to give away and to receive back! What else is there, I mean? Being vulnerable, being open, being loving, being genuine, being yourself, etc. When the news of something unexpected shows up, what do you do? How do you react? Who do you talk to? Where do you go? How do you feel? How do you speak to and why? Who do you touch? Do you drink anything, if at all? Do you eat? Do you need to be left alone? Do you get nervous? Do you think of all the consequences that you could come up with? Who is it that you would like to be around right now at the moment? Do you feel alone, lonely? I can think every day of and about you, and you bet I do! I have good reasons of doing so, because why not? I can and I can feel the future, with you, together! When your mind is busy preparing everything, thinking about this and that. When you have been trying to put things in order, when things that matter to you are the best there ever! When the time spend together is the best time spent that you could ever imagine! When even every second counts, when all the days and weeks have meaning for you. When life suddenly all makes sense and you cannot but help it and go and share it with that special someone. When you realize what is the time wasting activity if any, and you want to do more and more of what makes you come alive, what gives you passion and satisfaction and love and good feelings and vibes and smiles all over the place. When you are so absorb in an activity, when you are so in a flow, that you feel as if being in a completely different dimension. When you feel so hard about this your person, you feel that he must be thinking about you, too! Just give us a little hint, a little nod, a little help, a little proof! When the moments from your past are so vivid, and so alive, that you feel as if they are happening to you, just now, and right now. When you write and write and your fingers just type and type. You do not want to miss a beat, you do not want to miss a word! Just go and go and go and type your thoughts away, let them flow freely out in the open air! When all else sleeps but you! You and your thoughts and your person. I genuinely like you, the way you are, all the flaws that make the perfect version of you. And I am not afraid to speak about this. No one has ever dare to tell you these words? Well, look at me now, I am here half sitting, typing without any stops, thinking about you and universe and music and writing and family and friends and good times to be had, with the way you are! Nothing more, and nothing less. I do know what I have been talking about, I do mean every word I say to you and I am not afraid to sell this to you or anybody, if necessary! Because this is what is worth fighting for in my eyes, and I have no association with giving up. You know this by experience, I suppose! So, good night for now, sleep well and think of me in good terms, that is what I would love and wish to know! I am hoping so, so much for collaboration with you; my part collides with yours and something magical is just about to happen! I feel this in my bones, you should feel this, too! The feeling of a safety place, the sudden rush of happiness and great days and happy days to be had together!

Thank you, thank you for reading!!

This is a HARDCORE (& Charles Bukowski)

This is a HARDCORE

Yes, this is a hardcore. That would pretty much sums it all up!

The poems and the songs, the tunes, the paintings, the arts that all speak up for themselves in the name of ours!

You know what I mean, you know exactly what I mean by this! This has been the story of our lives, right to the last comma. The feelings are so strong, so wild, so intense, so emotional, you cannot just help yourself! You want and you feel with all the beats of your body that something is just about to happen. How are you going to go about this? When you want to talk to somebody, you do call, you do chat, you do get in touch in any way just to listen to his/her voice, just to make sure this person is doing great, just to make them happy the way they like and prefer! We should swim in love, we should swim in and with happiness, with passion, with emotions, with all that makes us humans! People who have standards, who know exactly what they want and they go after this no matter what! When you cannot get this song or this or that out of your head, so, then, what are you supposed to be doing? When you both are open-minded! When you are open to the other and vice versa. When you know each other very well, for a long time, when you want and do trust each other.

In words of Charles Bukowski himself:

“Eyes. Those damn eyes fucked me forever.”

“Look, let me put it this way: with me, you’re number one and there isn’t even a number two.”

“When you find someone who doesn’t annoy the shit out of you; hold them tight and close – never let them escape.”

“…I will remember the kisses
our lips raw with love
and how you gave me
everything you had
and how I
offered you what was left of
me,
and I will remember your small room
the feel of you
the light in the window
your records
your books
our morning coffee
our noons our nights
our bodies spilled together
sleeping…” (Charles Bukowski)

“I want to be with you, it is as simple, and as complicated as that.”

(Charles Bukowski)

Collaboration & Contribution

Collaboration & Contribution

How do you feel when you connect with someone you want to and care about?

How do you feel when you collaborate with someone you want to and care about?

How do you feel when you contribute to/with someone you want to and care about?

How do you feel when you communicate to/with someone you want to and care about?

I so would like to connect and collaborate and contribute and communicate with you. Something that we would work on and have fun with and create together, by your own name and by my own name. Something that we could call our very own creation that never ceases to amaze! It is going to be something so unique, so in our own name. Some part of me is going to be connected to some parts of you. I cannot even imagine what this creation of ours is going to be! Just beautiful, amazing, cool, kind. Have you ever felt that feeling of excitement when something nice is just about to happen and you are so ready to go for it? Let this happen soon, very soon! I have things to bring to the table and you have things to bring to the table. When life gives you lemons, when life gives you a cake, when life gives you a ladder, when life gives you a bed of roses, when life gives you a bed of nails, when lifes hands you struggles, when life gives you strawberries, when life provides you with smiling people, when life gives you grumpy fellows, when you are given all you need, when you are granted all you want, when you have nothing than your naked body and soul, when everything is given to you on a silver platter, when you have ideas, but no energy to make them into reality, when you have just realized that life is so not f*cking easy! Life is so precious, life is so short, life is so the way you make it so! How I would like to be with you right now and creating and contributing. To be close to you again and to feel safe, when you hold me tight all night and even harder upon awakening. This and that, the things I want to do with you this evening, tomorrow morning, tomorrow afternoon, and the day after tomorrow and the day after and the day after. We have been on each other's mind, the more we interact, the deeper it gets. I feel you feel the same, I feel you would like the same things. I know this! We, us, in the same room, the energy flowing all over the place! Lets get this going sooner rather then later, please! When you let your mind wander and I let my mind wander and then they collide and a magic is just about to happen! Trust this and trust me as I want to trust you! I am wishing for hearing your voice again, for speaking and talking on the phone, for meeting you, for showing you around all the beauty, for making you happy in every way! I am not sleeping any more, I want things to be happening at the high speed that is comfortable for us both! When you touch my body while you touch my soul, and when I touch your soul by touching your body! Passion that connects our souls together, the eye contact that connects the hearts, and the energy that is flowing through our veins. This and more is so close to us now, to reachable, to near by. Just awaiting us to take the lead and start the machine, stir in the right direction and sail this boat!!! Yes, oh yes! Thank you to my readers for reading, a real thank you and appreciation!!

The power of Intuition (with you!) (an intuitive thinking)

The power of Intuition (with you!)

(an intuitive thinking)

With you. To use my intuition at its best in relation to you.

To hear your voice. To speak and talk to you on the phone. The moment when you feel so good when you hear this voice again. Yes, I feel good inside when I hear you. It is a feeling, a lovely emotion, a sensation, to say the least. I would like to do this again, and again and again. It feeds my soul. My intuition says go ahead and do it! Ah, and not to mention the sensation that you feel by just imagining your fingers on me! So many beautiful moments, the visions of mine that made it into a reality, the dreams that came true. All this and more. I still believe, I do still believe that there is still something more. And sooner rather than later it is all going to be reveled. How do I know and feel at this? How could I and how could you possibly experience this? Simply, by listening to our intuition, that guiding voice that drives us and takes us onto a good path, that shows us the way, that leads us to an ecstasy. I do not think there is such a thing as a coincidence. Everything happens for a reason, there is a reason behind all this. There are no mistakes. My only wish is that you could feel this and then experience, too! How many times this has been going on like this for? How long this has been going on and how many things we have been going through actually together? The poems, the songs that have brought us together, the sensations after the call that we had, the sensation after the text that we received from each other, the an eye to eye look! That is hardly ever to be described by words, that had and must be experienced. When starting a family with you would be an absolute charm in all its glory!! I mean what I say to you and I know what I want! Please, feel me, let me feel you, please, let this all happen all over again! Brain can say one thing, but what about my heard, my soul, my intuition? What about these now? Things have not been happening just yet. There are going to be happening just about very, very soon! May you trust me more, may things unfold for us in a beautiful way. No one ever has been so close to me as you are. In every way. And for that I am thankful. I want to be with you, close to you, watch you, smile at you, eat with you, listen to music with you, fall asleep with you, watch while you are making music, laugh so hard with you,..

It is you, I cannot say it any other way now, you know who you are. I want to make you happy, I want to know about your wishes and desires, and I want us to be both very, very happy, indeed! Without any question marks, without any queries. Lets begin this ride, lets enjoy every bits of it. Lets put smile all over our faces, lets feel the heat, the good vibrations, the sensations all over our bodies and more, lets speak out our emotions, lets the feelings sing their own song. You have struck a chord with me, there is no doubt about this. You have blown my hear wide open and all I want to do to you is to feel the reward of this from me to you in the best way possible that you can imagine and even do not imagine. This I promise to you, I want to make sure that you know this and I will do everything to make this happen. Come, come and you will discover heaven on earth. I am here, there are many ways to reach me. Go ahead and make it happen. Thank you and get ready for your wish coming true!!!

How to have your cake and eat it all, too?

How to have your cake and eat it all, too?

How do you understand this one?

From the knowledge of all knowledge:

The proverb literally means "you cannot simultaneously retain your cake and eat it". Once the cake is eaten, it is gone. It can be used to say that one cannot or should not have or want more than one deserves or can handle, or that one cannot or should not try to have two incompatible things. The proverb's meaning is similar to the phrases "you can't have it both ways" and "you can't have the best of both worlds." Conversely, in the positive sense, it refers to "having it both ways" or "having the best of both worlds."

But what if you want both? What if you have been trying so hard? What if you are genuine? What if you really mean what you say? What of you really, really care? What if you have good intentions? What if what you have and what you want to bring to the table is precious, rare, real and honest? I still want more, I am aware you are not my seviour but I do still want more. How can I tell you? How can I prove it to you? How can I show you, how can we have a cake and eat it all, too? Please, tell me the way I should go.

When the feeling inside of you is still so strong, when you just know what you can get yourself into, only by carrying on what you have been doing. When every bone in your body wants to speak up, wants to be heard, wants to fight with all its might, when your eyes just could cry no more, when you cannot look at the picture of sad people without not saying a word or two. So, then, what do you do? When this person has been your inspiration in every way you can imagine, when you literally touch him in your dreams and you feel shivers and nice feeling all over your body, all over your mind, all over your soul. When you have reached the point of being sick and tired of waiting and you want to make your dreams come trust, just as simple as this sentence is. When the article after article is about this topic, when you cannot think clearly, just breathe in and breathe out.

For this person only, you can imagine your future. You imagine collaborating with him, to be close to him, to laugh out so loud, to be happy, to listen to music together, to fall asleep together, to eat, to shout out loud with the cry, anything and everything. I dream of this for so long, I feel this, I feel you, I feel everything, I feel the connection, I feel the vibes. The day when we were together, on your bed, you roll over towards me to reach out for me and to hug me. I was in heaven. The true reality of my dream came true. I want you to come over to mine, to visit me wherever I am. I want to show you around, to drive you around till we get tired and all that is going to be left would be to just embrace each other, to whisper sweet things into each other's ear. To listen to the music in the car, to eat and laugh and smile at one another. How I wish, please, make this happen. PLEASE, MAKE THIS HAPPEN. Please!!

Thank you as always for reading and 'feeling it' too!

Change the situation by changing yourself (Changing yourself changes the situation)

Change the situation by changing yourself

(Changing yourself changes the situation)

Profound, right? Not so, not so much at all, actually!

Yes, we understand the concept of it very well, indeed.

Changed situation vs ourselves changed.

I can see the point of what it is going and trying to make for us here. Yesterday was almost a day ago, yet my feelings, my attitude, my mood were all somewhere positioned in a completely different direction as opposed to where they are right now, at the moment. Why is this? Has anything happened? Is it the state I am currently in? Is that you that made me feel this way? How can I change this? How much can I change of this? All of it or just a bit of here and a bit of there? Have you ever felt as if being on a rollercoaster? As if one is is great and everything seems to go ''according'' to a plan and the next you feel gloomy and sad and exhausted from this all? How do get out of this situation? What the f#ck do we have to do in order to get be in step and dance our ways away again? Do you ever feel as if not many people really understand you? Just a few, who are willing and loving enough, souls that feel and are on the same wavelength? Why do I still strongly believe that you are a person I have chatted in the past, we have been so much on the same wavelength, I have had so many connections with you. Please, please, stay and feel this with me again. Should I embrace the current situation and just learn from it? Am I thinking too much, way too much? Tomorrow, the next day, I may feel a bit different. Am I still alive? Am I still hopeful, am I going to be happy again, alone, with this person, with whom? How can I change the situation with the mind that is literally driving me crazy at the moment? Perhaps, I should calm down first and foremost and then deal with this sh#t!! Yeah, perfect timing as usual. I can feel everything and anything in my body fighting against this awkward state I am in. As if in I am not supposed to feel that way. I am just making a big deal out of nothing. Should I put myself in his position, in his shoes? Does he want me, he says so, he says he wants me with a sad face because I hurt him in some way. We would get together, that is for sure, if in a same town, and things would get started. A trip to my country would solve so many question marks? I so care about this, that means so much to me. I did not mean to turn this into a diary thing, yet from time to time, to vent all the emotions is very healthy, indeed, so maybe just for this reason only, people should do this as well, some in their diaries, some by going outside, some by listening to music, some by doing sports, some by talking to a professional. Any way is perfect as long as it serve the purpose for the current situation to this person who is struggling and fighting with demons in a mind's clothes. Let me help you, you, the person who is on my mind for the most part of the day. Things may get better and easier. You are not going through them alone, if with me. We can and we should always work together. Take my hand and trust me, get serious on subject that really do matter and I will promise you you will not regret a thing! This is my word and I stand by it, always. Always!!

Black & White thinking

Black & White thinking

In love. In work. Among friends. In a social group. At the party. At the music event. At festival. In the library. At the canteen. At school. At the desk. In the laboratory. To name just a few! Anywhere at all is good when we can actually choose the way we are going to think in!

When giving up is not an option for you, when you have no association with giving up at all. When you cannot see the light at the end of a tunnel, yet you still feel somewhere inside of you there is a meaning in this all and you must just simply carry on like that, never mind the length of time it may take. Whatever thing it is that you have been going through and/or have been struggling with, all that black and white thinking of ours can be applied to it any time. Positive vs negative, simple or more complex one. What are the drawbacks and benefits? Where to draw the energy from when you feel at your weakest point ever? When and where to ask for love? Who do you call? Who to trust? Where to go if necessary when you want to be just left alone? How do you pick yourself up? When to spice it up a little bit more? What about the best timing? If not now, then when, please? What about your friends, the real ones who get to your phone at any time of day and night?

When you are on the roll, you cannot literally stop yourself and you go on and on non-stop. When your fingers just tape away, when the music in your ears in never-ending. When your passion might just about to bursts, when you do not want to rush things just for the sake of those things, when you suddenly believe all over again, when you want to hug this person without speaking a word, when you want to give and give and give. You have believed in this person all along, you want to see this person happy and succeed in what he does best and enjoy most! When you want to start something new with this person, when you want to start something big, when you want to embark on a brand new journey just with this person only. When something Bigger than anything you thought of is somehow on your side, the one you share together with this person. If the little fire is there and you both can and want to make it bigger and brighter and hotter and more meaningful. When you mind just won't shut up. When you do not feel hungry at all, just thirsty all the time. Thirsty for his connection, thirsty for his happiness. And thirsty for your brand new made journey. I wish for us both to stay strong no matter what, whatever they throw on this journey of ours can not break us but will make us come out even more bolder, stronger, sexier, interesting, funnier, relaxed, you name it!! Please, come with me and hold my end till the end of times, I promise everything is going to be beautiful, not perfect, but profound and lovely. Thank you for today, thank you for talking to you, thanking for all that you have said and asked, thank you for being there. May this gets many more repeats. I will do my part and I will do my best to make you a very happy man alive, indeed! May the collaborative work also gets up and running, going full on. There is a lot in you and I have lots to offer, too, and we both together can create a miracle by all means! No rush, no pull, no push, just a flow that keeps on getting bigger and more passionate and more incredible and more great as we go along with it!

Thank you once more!!!

Energy fires up (grooving)

Energy fires up (grooving)

Energy is at its highest.

Energy fires up.

Energy at its best.

Energy at is finest.

Energy firing up.

Make it work. I want to trust, I need to trust you. Prove to me that I can trust you!!

Remember when you said my name. My energy was flowing all over my body.

Remember when you first kissed me – my energy was flowing all over my body.

Remember when you mentioned you cooked: a beautiful sound to the ears.

I want us to connect together, in every way, that is!

How does it feel to be so close to someone you feel so good to be around? It is a happy grooving indeed. How can I show you all that is inside of me? All the passion, all the tension, all that makes me who I am, all that craves you, all that is interested in you? When you know exactly what you want, when you have finally made a decision, when all the questions have been answered. When we can learn from all that we have been through together, and still carry on nevertheless. I am who I am, you are who you are. There is so much more that we can do together, that we can create together, there is so much we can contribute, there is so much we can do to collaborate for its best!

For all the people that understand, for all that have been through the similar and took their chance and made everything nice and enjoyable and lovely and groovy happen – congratulations, you are the ones who lead! You have my full attention, you have my energy, you have my time. Please, make me stronger too for all that is on my mind. When you feel you have done anything to make this happen, to let the person you care about made known of what you feel, what you want to say and what keeps you awake at night. The moment when you say to yourself that you are ready to fight to this person, the moment when you do things that are bigger that any words, actions that speak definitely and totally louder than any words in the world! When everything at all sounds just a little bit better, seems and looks just a little bit more pleasant, the books and poetry and lyrics that read just a little bit more interesting. I will do my best to make sure this is going to happen. I also need your help! Will you help me out! Can we be happy and satisfied again? To reach me out, to reach you out, to connect in the most beautiful way.. I am here. I want you to come and see me. Let us make the music again together sound amazing. Thank you for being here. Never ever give up on us – the best is yet to come! 

IT IS YOU – I can't say it any other way!

It is you – I can't say it any other way!

Yes, you. I cannot say it any other way, it is you. It has been you! Really. I know, you must know, it is you. Period.

Looking back, it has been a long, a very long journey. Indeed! I wish you knew and I hope you do know what all that means to me. So much. Everything. Everything and more. Admit it, you have known this, you have felt this. Look at this, please, would you? We can do so many things, together. The collaboration, the plays, the laughs, the music, the writing, the poetry. You as a man, I want to make you happy. Me as a woman, I want you to make me happy again. The feeling of a total satisfaction. The times when we can talk together, an easy conversation, fuzzy feelings, lovely emotions. Woman wants to talk to you, can you hear it? Let me speak to you, let me say to you what is on my mind. Remember, when we were together? Remember all the clicks between us? How is it that we would not stay still if left in a room, just by ourselves? Can you imagine all the energy firing up? Do you recall the moment when our laptops froze because of all this energy of ours? Do you remember the time you called me? When you wanted me? I wanted you?? You said you loved me! You fought for me, and I fought for you – many times! And, ah, let's not forget all the passion, all this passion between us, between all those songs and tunes we have shared, all those messages, between all this!!! I can still feel it, please, please, do feel this too! This connection can always live on!

The artist, you, the music head, you, the funny one, you, the passion one, you, the one I found you, you!

I feel you, if only you could sit down and talk to me, trust me completely and totally. When you feel so free to share stuff, anything, everything at all, with me. When you open up to me, when you let me into your world, in your soul, in your heart, in your fingers, in your eyes, in your mouth, in your body, in your taste, in your mood, in your passion, in your everything. This is what I mean, as I KNOW you would love it, too!!

I want to be with you, I want you to touch me, to kiss me and I want to touch you. I want to talk to you about the music, the things you have been up to with the music, the stuff you have been working on at the moment, about me and the contribution and about our collaboration. To look into your eyes, and you looking into my eyes.

I want us to feel safe, so safe, actually, in each other's company, that it would feel like coming back home, to you, to me, and to us! You don't want to hurt me and I don't give up on you, ever!

Oh, when you surprise me and I surprise you. When the passion, the connection is very strong, fun, interesting, exciting, loving, warm, joyful, passionate, happy.

Give me, give us a chance and I can prove it. I want to see you and I want you to see me. Feeling wild and free again. Together. No other way. To kiss you on your forehead. To kiss me on my lips. To touch me. To touch you. To feel one another again! This fire can never die! I will make it go on and on to keep us safe and warm, totally happy and passionate about each other in every way!!

May you hear this song of mine.......

.... for you.

Come Closer to Me. (2)

Come Closer to Me. (2)

I want to be yours.

One person who deeply touches your soul.

I want you to own me.

I want you to cherish me.

I want you to eat from me.

I want you to drink from me.

I want to be kissed by you.

And I want to be missed by you.

I want your fingerprints
all over me, again
and all over again.

I want to be cuddled up with you.

I want to be hugged by you.

I want to be held by you.

I want to snuggle.

I want to surrender.

I want to embrace.

I want to be freely
vulnerable with you.

I want you to touch me,
to touch me everywhere.

I want your lips to wander anywhere
and you to get lost
somewhere in me.

I want to belong to nobody but you.

I want.

I want.

I want.

Someone with whom
you so much feel
on the same wavelength.

Someone who
you so much feel
to be on the same page with.

Someone you so much feel
ready to love
and be loved in return by.

Someone who
has such a creative,
beautiful soul inside.

Someone who you feel
wants to open up.

Really open up to you.

Someone who wants
to hold you tight
all night
and even harder
upon awakening
in the morning
and you want
the very same thing.

Someone who you want to trust.

With all your heart.

Someone who you so much
wish things to work out
for you both.

Someone who you want
so much to be patient
with you.

Someone who you are going to meet.

Face to face.

Talk about everything and all.

Repetition, pretty please.

Someone who wants
to show his affection for you.

Through that song,
through something that only
you two would understand.

Something that connects
only the both of you together.

Someone who wants
to be loved by you.

Forever.


Someone who has been
your inspiration,
your creative muse.

Someone who is gentle
and sensitive
and creative and smart,
bad ass and good looking,
and insane.
A dangerous combination.

Someone who you
so desperately
want to hang out with again.
And again.
Finally.

Someone who likes you a lot.

Someone who you care about.

And someone who cares about you.

I have been waiting
patiently.

I am waiting,
patiently.

For you.

Awaiting you.

For us. For us both.

I love you.

confession: you refuse to blush with shame. (2)

confession: you refuse to blush with shame. (2)


There is a good time to be had & a confession to be made!


"I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where. I love you simply, without problems or pride: I love you in this way because I do not know any other way of loving but this, in which there is no I or you, so intimate that your hand upon my chest is my hand, so intimate that when I fall asleep your eyes close." 
- Pablo Neruda, 100 Love Sonnets 


I want to be yours. 

One person who deeply touches your soul.

I want you to own me. I want you to tempt me. 
I want you to eat me. I want you to drink from me. 
I want to be kissed by you. And I want to be missed by you.
I want your fingerprints all over me, again and all over again.
I want to be cuddled up with you. I want to be hugged by you. 
I want to be held by you. I want to snuggle.
I want to be surrounded to you. I want to embrace you.
I want to be freely vulnerable with you.
I want you to touch me, to touch me everywhere. 
I want your lips to wander anywhere and you to get lost somewhere in me. 

I want to belong to nobody but you.

I want and I want and I want!!!


"I love you as certain dark things are to be loved, 
in secret, between the shadow and the soul." 
- Pablo Neruda, 100 Love Sonnets 


Someone with whom you so much feel on the same wavelength. 

Someone who you so much feel to be on the same page with. 

Someone you so much feel ready to love and be loved by in return. 

Someone who has such a creative, beautiful soul inside.

Someone who you feel wants to open up. Really open up to you. 

Someone who wants to hold you tight all night and even harder upon awakening in the morning and you want the very same thing!! Ahh damn yeah...

Someone who you want to trust. With all your heart. And body. And soul. 

Someone who you so much wish things work out for you both. 

Someone who you want so much to be patient with you. 

Someone who you want to message with.

Someone who you are going to meet. Face to face. Talk about everything and all. And repetition pretty please. 

Someone who wants to show his affection for you. Through that song, through something that only you two can understand. Something that connects only the both of you together. 

Someone who WANTS to be loved by you!! For ever. 

Someone who has been your inspiration, your creative muse.

Someone who is gentle and sensitive and creative and a smart bad ass and good looking and insane. A dangerous combination. 

Someone who you so desperately want to hang out with again. And again. Finally.

Someone who likes you a lot. A LOT, he says!!

Someone who you care about. 

And someone who cares about you. 

Someone who you believe in. 


Now.. I have been waiting patiently. 

I am waiting patiently. For you. 

Awaiting you.

For us. For us both.

I love you.

Get in touch with me as soon as possible! 


"So I wait for you like a lonely house
till you will see me again and live in me.
Till then my windows ache." 
~ Pablo Neruda  




And because you refuse to blush with shame! 

Yes. 

You.

You. Refuse. To. Blush. With. Shame. 


Receiving is harder than giving. 

And comforting you is as important as shaking you up. 

Saying no to others means saying yes to yourself.

You have been sick and tired of being sick and tired. 
NOT any more.
NOT any longer.

You could cry your eyes and ears out. 

You could cut your heart wide open.

You could scream yourself to sleep.

You refuse to sit in a corner.

Giving up is not an option. Giving up is a choice. 

Screw you! Screw the entire world!!

You refuse to blush with a shame...... Yes, you do!

You chose to show your vulnerability. 

You embrace your insecurities.

You prefer to open up. 

You act upon your thinking. 

You learn from your mistakes.

You celebrate your achievements. 

You show your feelings. 

You stand up for your art. 

You are nothing but authentic.

You openly speak up. 

You prove your words.

You are humble in your approaches and opinions.

You chose to be happy!

You declare independence. 

You cherish the little things.

You savour the quiet days /minutes/seconds.

You admit your faults.

You value your time.

You seek only high moments. 

You have high standards for yourself.

You are liberated by your choices. 

You hold no grudges. 

You lead by an example.

You are high on emotions.

You have no judgements.

You care. You so f*cking care!!

And You also let go.....


Fake it till you make it. 

Fall flat on your face. 

Your health is your wealth!

It is what you make of it.



Period.

When you can say nothing at all....

When you can say nothing at all....

What does it mean when you can say nothing at all? With you, with us? When words are not enough or when words and not needed at all? When only the look in your eyes will suffice, when even the hug will do, a smile, a stroke, a touch, a gentle shake can all take place! I would like to be with you, to smile at you, to laugh with you, to listen to music with you, to eat with you, to do crazy stuff with you, to drive with you, to be happy with you,...

The music, the poetry, the writing, the art in any form for that matter, all this is telling us something when even the words can come short. How can this be? Has it ever happened to you when only the look could speak a million and a million of words?

There are many ways to get a hold of me and you, there are many ways to reach me! The ability to read between the lines, the ability to understand anything without speaking or opening the mouth, without even listening for the words! That is a gift, a talent, something we should appreciate and not take for granted, for sure!

How many times have we talked and chatted together and how many ways have we used to communicate between each other? When you say nothing at all, when only and just your eyes make a connection or your lips slightly move and we can still yet manage to know what the other say. Am I too complicated or am I too easy to understand? Would you care even though no words are going to be truly spoken? I absolutely adore when you DO things, or say things, and then myself trying to figure them all out and find a meaning in this all, or translating what your mind has been up to for all this time!

And especially the Doing part is something I would like to point out by talking about it. Yes, we have all heard the saying actions speak louder than words! No one ever wants to be lied to, ever! Do you do your best and do you do even more than you have promised to yourself and others? Do you keep your words? Is there a white lie somewhere in the air? No problem, you say!

When we say/speak things and then we really mean it! I have a lot of things to tell you, to share with you, to speak about with you, to chat over with you. Many things are just at the tip of my tongue to burst out!!

Or when I think of you, I know you can do more, you can be more, I want to trust you, and I do respect you. Your personality is a chemistry for me, at its purest of all forms. Simple, yet so profound and complex!

We do have a lot in common, too! When I already know the way you think and the way you speak and the way you approach life.

I would really like to hold your hand and feel it, so you can feel me and you will know that you can trust me and I do trust you as well! That is so beautiful, is it not? What have you been thinking and what are you thinking right now? What is going on in your mind? What is actually on your mind, right now? And upon waking up in the morning? Can it be changed or should it be changed? Would you like it the way it is or not? I really do hope that we can make it successfully all through it and come out stronger than ever before!

Everyone should have to feel happy in every way possible and even unimaginable :-)

Thank you for your time you have spent reading it! Much appreciated!